Dirty Secret

Chapter 14

"Can you tell me about your family?" Harry asks softly, his voice quiet as he runs his palms against Louis' back. He had a hard time listening to the omega cry and be unable to do anything about it. Louis had been calm for an hour or two now and by the unsteadiness of his breathing, Harry knew that he was awake.

Louis stirs in his arms slightly and moves his head so he can blink up at the alpha. Harry's heart warms at the sight of the omega being all soft and sleep-warm. It was a contrast to the strong front that Louis kept on to appear bigger. "What do you want to know?" Louis asks quietly. His voice was tight from the crying but it still sounded more than lovely to Harry.

"Anything you want to tell me. I know you have sisters and a brother based on your letter," Harry says humming.

"I have five younger sisters and one baby brother," Louis says quietly, a small smile threatening to rise on his lips. "Lottie, Fizzy, Phoebe, Daisy, Doris, and Ernest. I love them all to death, they're the light of my life," he whispers. "I'm closest to Lottie because they're closest to my age but we're all still close. My mom- she is the best. She's so strong and always puts us before her though we want her to take care of herself too," he bites his lip.

"She does what she thinks that is the best for you," Harry says softly, his eyes locking with him. "She wants you guys to have a good life. That's what mothers do."

"I know that," Louis agrees lightly. "I just wish that she would spoil herself once in a while. We're lucky that our father takes care of her," he says with a soft smile. "When I was growing up, he was rarely around so my mom had to raise me basically by herself. It wasn't my father's choice, he had a job to serve the pack leader, just like now, but back then it required a lot of traveling. When Lottie and Fizzy were born his position was changed by his request. He wanted to be part of the family."

"You sound sad," Harry points out frowning. Usually, when Louis mentioned his family he looked happy, carefree. But at the mention of his father, he seemed to be sad even. "Isn't that a good thing? That he wanted to be closer to you guys," he asks softly, moving a strand of hair away from the omega's face.

Louis shrugs lightly. "I guess I'm just disappointed with myself," he says quietly, turning his eyes away from Harry, breaking the eye contact.

"Why?"

"He gave up his position for the girls, no questions asked. But why didn't he do it for me? I was his first son, his first baby and he didn't try to make time for me, even though my mom needed him. It was hard for her to take care of me alone, considering that I'm an omega and a boy. People gossiped that my father didn't want me so that's why he focused on his work. And when he got the children he wanted he stopped," Louis explains his voice barely audible. Harry could hear how much the words hurt the small omega and that made him hurt. How could Louis even think that? On some level, he could understand why, but he didn't want to. Not when Louis was perfect.

He moves his hands to cup Louis' face, tilting it so he could see the omega's eyes again. "Hey, don't think it like that. I can't speak behalf of your father, but I seriously doubt that he didn't want you. Like you said, you're his first child, his flesh, and blood," Harry says his voice soft but words carefully pronounced. "I think that he was in the middle of something he couldn't just walk away from. After all, he worked in a high profile job, it would've been frowned upon if he had just left. And I think that when your sisters were born he was in the place with his work that he could do it."

Louis blinks up at him slowly, his eyes bright blue and so captivating. Harry had had his fair share of encounters with omegas, few relationships included, but none of them had captured his attention the same way. From the moment he laid his eyes on the small figure he was at his feet. It didn't matter that at the time he thought that Louis was an alpha- he had his attention. That's why at first he tried to break him. He thought that if he could do it, Louis wouldn't be on his mind constantly and throw him off. It was safe to say that the plan didn't work out.