I stared in his eyes, hoping to find some kind of sympathy, some kind of apology, nothing. Nothing was there, it was like he wasn't even on this planet.
"You will never be loved! You're an animal!" I screamed. "No one in this house deserves to live! You are all fucking sick!" I stood up and this point, I couldn't care less the pain I was feeling. "But what about me huh? I'm nothing...but a stupid girl who didn't listen to her mother and got kidnapped! How do you sleep at night? knowing you killed 26 people? Make that 27 because I'm sure you're ready to kill me now huh? just do it Justin! it's not like I'm not ready to die..." Forb had come out by this time with Elena by his side.
"I can't kill you...I want to change Josie! I do, but I don't know how to do that...I don't know how to do anything anymore...I can't even keep my fucking door locked! And don't get me started on girls...it has been 6 years since I've kidnapped someone, anyone really."
"Why can't you just set me free?" I hissed, stepping a bit closer to him as I felt less afraid. "If you want to change then just let me go home...or I'll..."
"You'll what?" Forb spoke, I was going to say never be happy but after hearing his voice and how much he didn't give two shits about me I decided not to.
"I'll kill myself." I cried.
"No you won't." he said, almost immediately. Like he already knew what I was going to say in the first place.
"What?" I questioned, confused. What did he mean 'no I won't'? How would he know anything about me? He hasn't been there for me at all, he had no business telling me what I'd do!
"You won't. You won't because you can't. and if you were even an inch close to suicide you wouldn't be announcing it now would you? No. Don't do that to me Josalie. You are an amazing girl and if you would just cooperate like Elena here, your life wouldn't suck as much as you think it does. stop being a little bitch and zip your fucking pants!" he barked at me. He was right, I wasn't going to kill myself. of course I want to...but I can't. Though I can think about it...and wish for it...death doesn't look good on me.
"Who the hell are you!?!" I screeched, I wasn't done though...oh no. I will not be anywhere near cooperative with fucking Satan, his helper and their little stripper. Oh no. "And you...Elena...how dare you make this easy on him? He is a demonic fuck and you make this light? I would rather die giving the both of them hell then to make anything easy for them."
"Josalie..." she whispered, shyly and shallow. "I am not like you..." was all she said and I knew she wasn't okay. Just by hearing her voice, so broken and empty. I couldn't handle it...I cracked.
My body hit the porcelain flooring for the second time...but this time I didn't plan on getting up you see
This is all too much for me
I wan't to be happy
I wan't to be strong
I don't remember the last time I was laughing
The last time everything didn't feel so wrong...
I just lied there...Justin tried to help me several times, "I'm sorry" he'd say or "I love you" or something to that extent. I didn't care though, I soon cried myself to sleep there I didn't care that I was cold or hungry or hurting. I just wanted to sleep so badly.
"Good morning Lovely." I heard someone say to me as my eyes peeled open to the sunset and the french vanilla smell of lotion.
"Um...hi." I slightly smiled noticing Justin changing as I looked away, blushing just a bit. I knew it was terrible of me to blush at the glimpse of my changing kidnapper but...I guess I just couldn't help myself.
"Okay listen. I have a meeting today with my friends and I need to know if you'll be okay here with Elena..or do you wan't to come with me?" He asked. Why was he being so sweet? It's been only two months and it's like he's Romeo or something.
"Um can I just stay here?" I choked out, feeling the sourness of my throat pain me. "I kind of have a headache anyway."
"I would imagine..." he laughed, noticing the blueness I was feeling, sending me a sympathetic smile. "Just please don't do anything stupid..I would hate to punish you after last night." And there I felt those butterflies in my stomach. As he began to shut the door. "Goodbye Lovely, I love you." I just didn't respond, knowing I shouldn't have said anything. I most likely would've regretted it later.
I jumped out of the bed and rushed to the door that Elena suffered behind. Banging on it, without patience. She came to open it and I walked in swiftly.
"Elena I'm sorry...I wasn't stable last night." I said playing at my fingers.
"No it's fine. I just can't be strong...not anymore."
'You don't have too...but I want to get us out of here. I know we can be free someday..."
"What if I don't want to be free? What is free anyway? Standing in the middle of nowhere? For what? To feel the same pain you are feeling...to watch as you drown, as you try to scream but you are far to deep for anyone to hear you. To be in pain with nothing but reassurance that you are alone? No...I don't want that." She spoke softly. Her words hinting at confusion but still true.
"You won't be alone Lena! You have me!" I said feeling my blood boil under my skin as I looked into her eyes. How could she think she didn't have me? I have always been there for her!
"No I don't. I lost you as soon as you walked through that front door...just like your family and just like you lost yourself." She said, darkly. She was right though. Why was I getting angry? She was right! "Now please let me sleep..." She almost demanded...I couldn't believe how weak and lifeless her voice was...it was as if she was slowly dying inside, watching herself drown.
"Yeah um okay...s-sorry to bother you..." I waved exiting the room. I cleared my throat as I went into Justin's bedroom, climbing into his bed I pulled the sheets over me and curled up letting a single tear fall on the pillow beneath me.
I guess I'm not getting out of here any time soon...
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"Wakie wakie!!" I heard a voice say...I voice that I have yearned for.
"Hi dad I smiled, placing a kiss on his cheek as I hoped out of bed...
"Come down for breakfast Josalie, You need to eat something he said before he left my room. I looked around noticing somethings weren't exactly how I left them...I guess my mom moved stuff.
"Mom!!" I shouted as I searched the house for her beautiful long white hair. No response. I jogged downstairs to ask dad where mom was but I notice him leaning over the counter...crying?
"Dad what's wrong where is mom?" I asked, feeling that fear in my stomach.
"You don't remember?" He frowned at me.
"Remember? Remember what? Dad!!" I shouted, freaking out inside...and out.
"Your mother is gone Josie." He sternly said, looking in my eyes.
"What? What no! That's not-no!!" I said, as I crouched down below the counter. I cried. I'm laughing, I'm crying, it feels like I'm dying...
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"Number 27"
Romance"What number am I?" I whispered a question hoping Justin would give me a truthful answer. He put his hand out for me to take but I refused it. "Come here, sweetheart." Annoyance was clear in his voice but he tried to be as sweet as possible. I took...
