Paradise-discontinuing

Chapter 1

-Johnson's POV-

'A drop in the ocean a change in the weather I was praying that you and me might end up together it's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert'
As i was listening to to the drop in the ocean this explains how I feel right now towards jack.
I was just sat in our apartment watching jack and his girlfriend don't get me wrong she's really sweet and were all friends but all I feel Is jealousy.
We were waiting to go to our first magcon.
You see the thing is that all the voices in my head are telling me that they will never accept me or the fans are just there for gilinsky which is all true.
Jack doesn't know about all my life is that I cut, I'm anorexic and bulimic and depressed beyond belief I'm surprise jack hasn't noticed.
I never realised that i zoned out to Jack saying "hey Jack we
Have to leave know ""okay let me go get my things from upstairs" then jack said like he realised something "I already brought it Down for you""oh okay thanks""no problem".
I'm waiting at the door while Jacks say bye to Emily she comes over and hugs me of course I hug back "byeeee jack" she said squishing me me and Jack laugh at her.
See Emily is like a sister I never had and I love for that's she is just so understanding and you could tell her anything and she would still not judge you no matter what you have done.(in every bxb fanfic I've ever read the gf is always a bitch so yeah)
*+*skip car ride*+*
We were talking about random shit till the intercom said flight "209 to Dallas Texas"(I haven't been to and airport some I was 6 bear with me) "well come in jack we don't wanna miss our flight" jack laughed at god knows what.
All I wanna do right know is cry myself to sleep like all the other nights.
-skip plane ride-
"Jack come on Jack we gotta go" I was awoken by jack staring at me with is brown eyes you could get lost in.
As we were walking over to a sign saying magcon we saw 2 boys one with really cute shaggy brown hair and a lazy eye wearing a tank top which you can clearly his abs and massive arms trough and next To him is a slightly short her one with a bandana on a low cut tank with sunglasses on while they where talking the stoped and noticed us giving each other look which me and jack looked over to each other and the next thing we knew we where in the floor and me thinking to my self"this will be a fun tour" --should I keep doing this?