Memories in the Void

Chapter 3

Another TW for FTM Pregnancy. If that makes you uncomfortable, thank you for reading this for and you're free to stop reading here. 

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"Pregnant?" exclaimed a confused Raphael. "You told me you weren't able to-" The shorter man caught him off, clearly on his last string of patience. "Obviously I lied to you. Why would I want to carry your child?" Leo was already fuming with the thought of being stuck here with him. He kept his distance to calm himself down. Raphael began connecting dots about the children they saw earlier in the memories. He scoffed at the fact Leo had children with a mortal. He poked at that fact. Wanting to make Leo pop, he kept pecking at it. "Doesn't it bother you that your little husband is going to perish before you will?" Leo mentally groaned. So came the pestering questions from the narcissistic asshole. He only sighed, "You think I didn't know that when I married him?" Married. That bothered Raphael. It ticked him off to hear that he was married. "You've been with him for what? A decade? Well, for him. To you, it probably feels like a few weeks. Maybe even a year," Raphael poked at again. Leo didn't want to listen to him, but he was right. It's terrifying to think about how the one he loves will live out his life with someone who slowly ages. Both he and Raphael are the same age. Both barely reach the celestial age of 18, but they're thousands of years old compared to a normal lifespan. It's intriguing to find out who's more mature for their age. They have their moments where they think they're still children. Raphael more so than Leo. It explains, but doesn't excuse, why he acts the way he does. He's petty, self-centered, and shows little care towards others like a rebellious dickhead teen. Although more sincere and considerate, Leo tends to get himself into trouble through reckless thinking. Leo keeps pushing away Raphael's questions. He's trying not to stress himself out. Keeping yourself calm is a little hard when you have nothing to do and the only other thing around is your pestering ex. There was a slight moment of silence. Leo was preparing himself for the next question or snarky statement. "What if you never see him again?" The question began. "What if you get out of here too late and he's already gone?" The words from his mouth pulled Leo's heart. It hurt him to think about it. He probably could never see his family again because of reckless actions to keep the man he hates gone for good. He told himself to not let Raphael get under his skin, but he couldn't help himself with that question. Raphael watched as the other boy knelt down as tears fell on the ground.

The air was stiffer than it was before. Leo didn't talk to Raphael or make any snarky remarks. Raphael thought about how he maybe went a little too far, but it was his own version of the truth of the situation. Leo wasn't talking to him anyway, but this silence was different. Regardless of the situation, Raphael thought out how they would stay here. Leo with a child possibly can't be easy especially in a place with limited resources. Maybe he could even be a part of the child's life. No, Leo told him to stay away from them. Leo didn't want the child picking up Raphael's terrible personality. Hopefully, it'll be safe enough with Leo watching over it. He was already thinking of names. It would be helpful with Mid around. She was like his midwife. It would be nice to have Robin around too. He'd be good emotional support for this situation. Leo misses his twins. He felt he wasn't the best dad. He hated the thought of having kids before they were born. It was by chance that he got pregnant. He only figured it out when Midnight told him she heard more than one heartbeat near him. Robin took forever to connect the dots, but when he did, the look on his face was just pure joy. Leo felt uncomfortable with the thought. He already had enough issues with constant misgendering and catcalling. Being pregnant is only going to make that worse for him. His dysphoria became worse as the weeks went by, but he didn't want to get rid of the babies. When those twins were born, he thought he would hate them. Those babies in his arms became the best things in the world. His own flesh and blood with individuality and the chance to grow up and live a good life. It wasn't unheard of, but it was uncommon for demon children to be born. Little Callum was one of those miracles. He had Robin's hair and eyes with Leo's peculiar cheek markings. The two new parents looked over at their second child. A child with snowy white hair, reminding Leo of his old life as an angel. The little one had the same ruby eyes. Azrael became his name. Leo loved the two very much. He almost felt guilty for thinking he would hate them.

Raphael watched the memories played out of the whole event. Leo was asleep on the floor, dreaming or remembering the whole thing. The red haired man muttered to himself those names. Callum and Azrael.. He only saw the children for a brief moment before they got trapped in here, but he could see how much they resembled Leo. He couldn't help but think about his own kid. Not that Raphael is a good father or even a decent one. He rarely sees Adam. Leo made it clear back then that he wasn't going to allow a small being go through the abuse he went through. It made Raphael think about how unstable he can be, but eventually forgot about it. He figured he wouldn't see Adam again, seeing how he's being cared for by human parents in Tadfield and celestial parents like guardian angels. Raphael wouldn't have a chance to see him again, but that's fine. He thought it was trivial to have a child. He only wanted one as an heir and a bringer of chaos to the surface. His power could only grow if chaos and destruction occurs. He only heard that Leo took him in and told him they were foster brothers. Whatever that was. It made Raphael laugh a bit, considering how.. The thought dropped his mind. It upset him too much to think about it.