First chapter

Chapter 1

"I want a real love, dark skinned and Aunt Viv love
That Jada and that Will love
That leave a toothbrush at your crib love
And you ain't gotta wonder whether that's your kid love
Nigga I don't want no bitch from reality shows
Out of touch with reality hoes
Out in Hollywood bringin' back 5 or 6 hoes
Fuck em' then we kick em' to the door
Nigga you know how it go
She deserved that, she a bird, it's a bird trap
You think if I didn't rap she would flirt back
Takin' off her skirt, let her wear my shirt before she leave
I'ma need my shirt back
Nigga you know how it go"

My favorite song on J.Coles new album was blasting throughout the house of my best friend Monique's boyfriends house. He's also the cousin of my Best friend Travis. The words of the song spoke real. I really liked his music because I felt like it was poetic and it relates to me. I'm from Compton and I really want to make it out one day. I wanna make it out for my momma so she won't have to take care of me & my 7 brothers and sisters alone. I want to take the stress off of her so she won't have to pay a bill again. And that's what I plan on doing.

"Come dance with me kay" my Bestfriend Travis said as the song changed to Kstylis. I stared at him for a while, he's so perfect with his Carmel skin and black curly hair. I love everything about him and I wished he felt the same way.

I went over to him and started grinding on him, because I knew that could get us to have sex tonight. Me and Travis are best friends with benefits. We met in kindergarten when he shared his animal crackers with me. I know it sound childish but from then I knew I was in love.
"What you thinking about kay?"
I grabbed him closer, bit his ear and whispered "you daddy".
I felt Travis Jr. Get hard under me.
"You know we can't do that anymore kay, I love Ashley and I'm trying to be faithful now"
I felt a ping of jealousy inside of me, how could he pick her over Me? His Best friend for over 10 years? I felt Travis staring at me so I quickly smiled
"Oh yeah, I'm sorry. I've just been stressed lately and you know you're my favorite stress reliever"
"I know Kayla, your mines too. I'm just trying to Change for her I really like this girl."
"It's okay, I understand Travis" I said with a forced smile.
"You better not be giving up what's mines though" he laughed while trying to stick his hand up my skirt.

I laughed along with him to cover up my hurt. No matter what's going on with me and Travis, I will never give myself to another guy. Travis took my virginity when we were both 16 the night after homecoming and that just made me love him more. That night he told me he was in love with me but he didn't want to jeopardize our relationship so we should do a no strings attached thing. I agreed because I love Travis and I'll do anything for him. Even if that means I have to have sex with him to feel all of him.

Travis made me feel pretty. I'm dark skinned and i feel that a lot of black boys are starting to like light skinned and white girls more and more everyday. Travis's new girlfriend Ashley is white too. She wants to be my friend so bad, but I can't be her friend knowing I sleep with her boyfriend from time to time. I don't do fake friendships.

"Let me get you home kay before your dad kills me"
"okay trav" I giggled.

The car ride was silent and "bedtime" by Usher was playing in the background.
It's started making me feel on the edge. I really needed Travis right now, but no he wanted to stay faithful to Ashley. That really made me have an attitude, so when Travis said something to me I ignored him.
"Why you have an attitude now kay?"
Silence.
"Kayla"
"Kayla Marie Johnson"
Next thing you know he swerved to the side of the road me parked and Turned my face to him.
"You know I love you? Right Kay? You know that?"
I started crying after he said that, it's just hearing him say that brought everything out.
"Why are you crying Kayla?" He said looking confused.
"I love you so much Travis. You have so many girlfriends and never made me your girlfriend! Do you know how that makes me feel? Is it because I'm not pretty enough? Am I not light-"
"Kayla don't say that, I love your chocolate skin, I love your bright hazel eyes and I love your long curly hair" Travis said as he started to kiss my exposed skin

It just made me cry and moan at the same time. Him just looking at me will have me ready. He looked me in my eyes and said "I love you" against my lips. It made me smile into the kiss and he pulled me over the seat to straddle his lap. Then he made love to me.

I'm in love with my bestfriend.