Confidant //narusasu//

7. Floodgates

S.

What in the actual fuck is wrong with me! How could I have let that happen. Even after knowing what the idiot expected of me, of our friendship. And I ruined it! And for what? A dream? The alcohol? Or the fucking, lowsy kiss? The amazing, stupid, beautiful fucking kiss. Oh that kiss. And on top of all that I confessed to him!? Why the fuck am I so self destructive? Why, when I knew that he's the single most important person in my miserable life, did I have to go and sabotage it because of my own stupidity!? Stupid, stupid, stupid!

I curse myself while standing here under the shower, washing away my pathetic tears along with my shameful existence. Why? Why do I love him so much? Why does my sad being revolve around only him? His smile, his laugh. Urgh fuck fuck! Get out! Get out of me you bastard! And so here I am, crying like a wounded person, all because I...don't want to lose him. No please no. He is my heart, he is my soul. I will cease to breathe without him.

I wipe away the last of my tears. Pathetic. And make up my mind, I'll leave. I'll go somewhere far and long, and he'll forget this ever happened, right? At least that way, he'll still be somewhat a part of my life, right? Yes that's what I'm going to do. Yes that's the only way. I'll blame this all on the alcohol and that stupid pill. With that thought, I turn off the shower and grab a towel, dabbing my body with it, while I look myself in the mirror. I almost can't recognize the person in front of me. He looks horrible, he looks beaten.

Wrapping the towel around my waist, I take a deep breath and walk out into the room. He was sitting on the edge of his bed, lost in deep thought until he saw me come out. I tried steering clear of him and walked towards my own bed, but I paused at the sound of his voice.

"Sasuke? Can we...can we please talk about this? W-whats going on-"

"I was drunk Naruto. We should sleep, we have a flight to catch in the afternoon", I wasn't facing him. How could I face him after that?

He kept silent for a while, then I heard him get up from the bed, coming to stand behind me. My muscles tensed, I cant deal with this right now. I can't see him turning me down like that. I can't, I will not allow it.

"No Sasuke. You have been putting this off for too long now. I know, Sasuke I know there's something going on. I see you. I can feel it. Please, please let me in", he said as he moved closer to me. Then he put his hand on my balled up fist. "Sasuke your shivering. Sasuke stop, look at me!", he turned me around to face him, his hands holding my arms firmly. His face was laced with worry, and I could see that he was scared. Scared? I was the one fucking scared, I was hyperventilating.

He rubbed my arms in order to soothe me, but seeing that he was failing, he brought me in for a tight hug. I resisted at first, but gave up almost instantly. "Please tell me what's wrong? Sasuke please I beg you"

That was it for me, the floodgates opened again and I held on to him for my dear life. I bawled like a baby in his arms, the anxiety of losing him was hitting me like a truck. I don't know when did I stop, because I felt him making me lie down on the bed, and he got in with me, hugging me tightly from behind. His strong arms steadying my trembling form.

Have you ever felt that? That feeling when a mere thought of something bad happening before it has even happened simply...breaks you. Huh. Anyway, I must've fallen asleep after that because all I remember is darkness.

I woke up to a weight shifting behind me on the mattress. I felt groggy, and not well slept at all. I basically felt like shit. The hangover was getting to me. I don't feel like moving, I kept my face buried in the pillow, eyes fixed on the window, sun rays peeking in from the closed curtains. I just want this feeling to end.

"I've put water and aspirin on your table", a sound came from behind me. I feel myself turning pale, then everything came back to me. The whole night. Shit, Shit, Shit! But then I remembered something else, I immediately looked for my phone and checked the time, 2:15!
"Shit! Naruto! We have to-"

"Relax Sasuke, I've postponed our departure" his voice was calm.

I sat up and looked at my friend, "W-wha...why would you do that?"

"Let's just say, I wanted to elongate our break...just a bit longer", he said with a smile.

I was confused, "But you have work. I have-"

"Shut up. Drink your water and get better, we have another week to ourselves bastard, and I plan to make it count".

A/N: Hey NS shippers!
I hope you like this story so far!