troubled book 2: keep holding on

chapter 7: im not okay, i promise (sorry for the delay, writers block!!!)

*bellE's pov*

beep.....beep....beep....

i hate that fucking sound, its like a goddamn electric woodpecker inside my ear. i look to the bedside table, where the heartrate monitor sits, beeping away like a nagging kid asking for a toy. i really need to stop thinking in analogies, its pissing me off.

i look to nick, his eyes closed, his brow sweaty and his purple and green hair ruffled and out of place.hes been asleep for almost 2 days, after the "accident". one of the doctors said he'd wake up today, but im calling bullshit, he looks like dogshite.god i gotta cut down on the swears too!

i look to my phone and see my close friends message notification.... teddy! hes awake. god isnt it 2am in england right now? hes an idiot.hunter you dumb bastard. i look at the text.

is your friend doin okay?

im not too sure, hes been out for two days straight, ill call you back okay?

bye bunny, see ya later.

i close my phone case and look to nick again, who is staring right at me.

"you doing okay?" he asks me.excuse me, what?

"shouldnt i be asking you that?" i reply, placing my hand on his forehead. his head was warm, but he didnt have a fever.he looks coldly at me.

" what do you think, bells. my abusive dad is free in this fucking town!!!"he yells at me," do i look fucking okay, with this fact embedded in my mind!!! he fucking beat, abused, and burnt me for 9 fucking years.so im not okay, i promise!!!"

i look to him in shock. i mutter an apology to him and he gives me a forgiving look.god...he really needs help.

speaking of help, zoeya runs in and hugs him tightly, making him chuckle and wrap an arm around her.he kisses her cheek, making her blush a deep red.

" your okay! thanks bells for looking after him!" she says making me smile in reply, " everyone is here to see you, and you can leave today! is that okay?" he nods and stand up shakily.we support him to the door and open it.

i see the others: jeff, micky, kane, zack, maddie, and ben.

*nicks pov*

i see the guys in their own little worlds, all of them sat at a bench opposite my room.

maddie kane and zack were first. kane sitting on zacks lap, drinking a latte...maddie's latte. maddie was glaring at them, her thumb flying across her phone screen. typical maddie, with thumbs like sonic the hedgehog.

then there is jeff and micky watching YouTube-most likely markiplier or jacksepticeye- and laughing lightly. ben was glued to his psp, as usual.

they all look up to me, and circle me in a deep hug, and i pat everyones heads, me bein' taller than all of them.

"im okay guys, im okay, im not dead" i chuckle pushing them all back. maddie was smirking up at me, giving me a high five. i

ruffle jeffs hair and bro hug ben.i give kane and zack kisses on the cheek, a wierd little thing i used to do with the gayboys.

when it came to micky, her eyes were a little teary, making me tut like a mother whos cleaning her childs dirty clothes. speaking in analogies again. i wrap my arms around her, making her blush discreetly. she looks up at me with wet cheeks and i chuckle slightly.

"im okay, i promise" i whisper.

you fucking lair nick.you goddamn lier.

A/N

hey hey hey, please dont kill me... ive been a bad little devil i get it, but ive been busy with exams, school, relationships, long distance crap, friends in trouble and writers block, so i have a lot of reasons for the delay.but now im back and im working my ass off from now on.