365 days as a helpless puppet

Chapter 4

Some weeks past and me and the others have become closer. We're kind of like a family, everyone cares for each other. I like it. Especially because I never had something like this. During those past weeks, the vision hunt decree began to become stronger and we finally needed a plan to put an end to this. "So, just to make this clear, no one is going off on his own." Kazuha said looking at Tomo and me with a serious expression on his face. "Alright! Alright! We won't..." Tomo said to him sounding kind of disappointed. "Good." Kazuha continued to give some examples for plans and the end results of them. But none of them were near the possibility of doing. It was like we were missing an important puzzle piece or something. After today, everyones brains were burned out and we still haven't had a single plan. "This is bad..." I said while laying my head down on the table. How are we supposed to defeat a god? Let alone her miso no Hitotachi. I suddenly excused myself to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me, then crashed down on the floor crying. Her awful face... I can't get rid of it no matter what I do. She's always on my mind and haunts me in my dream. She's like a shadow that follows me everywhere I go. I hate her. I stood up again, looking at myself in the mirror. There was me. Tears running down my face. I was still scared at her. I couldn't possibly stand in front her let alone fight her. She's my biggest fear and yet my biggest enemy. I wiped my tears from my face and went back to the others. "Kuni? Are you alright?" Kazuha asked me concerned but I just nodded at him and sat down. Of course I wasn't and he knew that. We all ate dinner together and then went back to bed. But I couldn't sleep. All I could think of was that one missing puzzle piece. "What or who was it...?" I whispered to myself, not knowing that someone was standing at my door. "Hey." The person standing there was none other then Kazuha. "What?" I said annoyed to him. Why is he always where I am? Can't he leave me alone for like, 10 minutes? "Wow, someone's in a mood." He said to me, wanting to step closer to me bevor I stopped him. "Is this funny to you?" I suddenly crammed. "Huh? What are you talking about?!" Kazuha said confused, know also kind of annoyed. "You're constantly mocking me! Can't you stay out of my face for once?!" I screamed at him. Why was I like this? I wasn't angry at him. I was angry at her. So why was I screaming at him? "What the fuck is wrong with you?!" He suddenly screamed back. "I'm trying my best to make this a home and to save Inuzuma and you say I'm mocking you?!" Kazuha said with an angry expression. "Can you please acting so childish all the time?" He continues to yell at me. I-...I didn't mean to make him mad. "I'll leave you alone until you calmed yourself down." And with that, Kazuha vanished in the hallway. "Kazu-..." I wanted to stop him, but it was already to late. Fuck. Why do I always do something wrong?! God damnit. That night, i didn't sleep at all.