She looked at me with a surprised face when I handed her the letter and told her that I wasn't joking. Yeah!! like she never had a clue about her being my crush. But wait, this story, the story of my life didn't start here. I'd rather say it ended here. Sad Na?? But there was nothing I could do to make it happy.
It all started a couple of months back. She was there looking at me. I too glanced a stare o two. But I had no clue that she would mean so much to me. She was the girl from my college. Her name, as she said, was Shrijana. And hell yeah she was beautiful! And I kid you not! We had something going on back then till some jackass ruined it all. She used to sit infront. of me and my pals with her friends. God I miss those days!! And she wasn't the confident one. She'd rather be known as a nervous freak. But that was I liked about her the most. Whenever the mathematics professor called her to do.some problems in the white-board, she'd nervously solved the problems in a super-speed jumping many steps. I uses to adore her a lot back then. And man we used to talk, so much that you'd wish you could talk with your crush like I did. The folks were jealous of us dude!! But as the saying goes, "Nothing Lasts Forever, Even Cold November Rain.", we weren't destined to be together. I guess it was never meant to be. But that's just something we had no control over and friends that's what destiny is.
Now you guys must be wondering what, ever happened to us. OK now, here's the thing. You remember the jackass I was talking about?? Yeah!! You guessed that right. That jackass is none other but myself. I fucking ruined it all. I have regrets, memories and I wish it would all be like it used to be. But what the hell!! Life goes on...even you want yourself to freeze in the moments, actually the best moments of all. And now she hates my guts and I pretend to do the same but intact I'm dying inside to talk with her again. I may seem strong on the outside but nobody knows what's going through the inside. Nobody even bothers to hug me and ask,"Hey Aankit, are you really OK??". No!! Not even my best friends. But who knows?? They may be in the same condition as myself. And now sometimes I wonder why it all had to end like this, in hatred. All I ever wanted was to be with her. I don't mean that I wanted to be her boyfriend or something. I just wanted to be with her. But all the efforts I applied to be with her went straight on vain. I never wanted to lose my friendship with her. Maybe she never did too. But hell!! My mistakes forced her to change her mind. But please don't think that I'm blaming her. I know that there has never been a saint. We both are crooked in our own views. But if she were to forget all these bullshit and start over, I'd be more than happy to do so. But I know that isn't possible. Not now!!!
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GuYs how's ThE stOry. Please SeNd Me Ur FeeDbaCks.
