Stray kids mafia Princess

Pt.33

3rd person POV:

Everyone is in the game room aside from y/n she is fast asleep in bed just where she wants to be. Hyunjin walks in sitting beside Han and Minho. "Is she okay?" Felix asks Hyunjin putting his remote controller down "yeah she just had some trouble falling asleep." Hyunjin says laying his head back.

"Well since everyone is here I think we need to talk about y/n." Seungmin says turning his attention off the screen to the seven guys. Chan sets his remote down and turns off the Xbox.

"When she had woken and I went inside her room I went to give her a hug and it caused her to flinch..as I was watching her interactions with you guys she seemed very skittish.  And anytime someone moved to quick, talked loud or even open the door too quickly she would flinch." Seungmin says the room becoming quite sad. "We need to be patient with her it will hurt us anytime she flinched at our actions but we need to keep in mind it's not us it's trauma..we need to be there for her. Her abuse is over but not her trauma." Chan finishes.

Minho turns his attention to the doorway "what's wrong?" Jeonjin asks. Minho looks at them putting his finger to his lips shushing them. There's faint screaming being heard in the distance "y/n" he mumbles getting up running up the stairs.

Minho has always had very keen hearing maybe that's why he's so good at poker and gambling. All the others get up running up stairs with him her screams becoming more clear.

Chan, changbin, Jisung, Felix and Hyunjin pull there gun out aiming for any dangerous target. Hey open the door searching the room but doesn't see anyone they al run to y/n confused and scared.

She's screaming her face is wet from her tears "she's having a bad dream" Jeonjin says staring at her. "Hey Princess-" seungmin stops changbin from waking her "no- don't wake her she's this deep into it if we wake her up now she could have a heart attack we need to let her finish." He says

"We can't just let her suffer seungmin!" Felix shouts pointing at his sister but looking at seungmin. "We need too... someone go grab a wash cloth and a bowl of cold water. We need a cup of warm tea and CBD oil." Hyunjin orders. Seungmin leaves to get the oil and Felix and Han leave to go get the ice water and cloth with a bowl of cold water while Minho goes to make the tea.

Chan looks at Hyunjin observing y/n "how did you know those are the things she needs?" Chan asks "it would happen to my mother." He says blankly.

Jeonjin pulls a hair tie off of his wrist and ties her hair up cooling her off. Y/n is crying in her sleep mumbling unclear words.

Y/n POV:

I wake up from my dream my body shooting straight up sitting my breath is heavy and fast "take a deep breath it's okay your okay." I hear Chan next to me. I look around the room scared my dream was actually real.

I see Hyunjin, Chan, changbin, and innie in the room with me and lay back down on my pillow I cover my face turning to my side hiding myself from them as I cry on my pillow.

"Hey we got the..." I turn around and see Felix and everyone else. "Are you okay?" Felix asks walking over towards me. "Can everyone leave please....aside from lix" I say quietly everyone quietly files out of the room. I feel guilty for sending them out but it was very overstimulating for me right now.

"How are you?" Felix asks sitting me up. "Do you want the truth?" I ask sighing he grabs a wash cloth dipping it in some water and ringing it out he softly dabs it on my head getting the sweat off and cooling me at the same time.

"The truth is all I ask sister." He says smirking making me giggle in the way he said it. "Honestly lix I'm scared I'm so scared and I deeply wish you guys would have just left me to die. I'm happy to be home for you and everyone else here because all I want is for you guys to be happy but I feel dead I feel broken all I feel like doing is crying." I explain to him. Incase there are any listening ears I tell him in English.

"I understand how you feel..I get where you are coming from. It hurts me to know you feel that way that you would rather be dead. But I want you to know that I will be here I will help you heal I will help you overcome anything I can help with. I'm your brother and I'm your twin. I will always no matter what be here for you. With time things will get better...you will get better if there is anything you need to get off your chest do so."

My eyes start watering again and now at this point it's just making me mad "ugh why am I crying so much." I complain laugh crying whipping my tears Felix helps me wiping some. "Thank you lix I love you."

"I love you too."  He hands me a cup of hot tea taking a sip it warms me up "lix?" I call him he looks up at me "yeah?" He asks "can you do me one more favor for the night." I ask him he nods his head yess in response "could you please go get Hyunjin." I ask he says yes getting up and walking out.

A few moments later the door opens and Hyunjin comes in and sits in the place Felix was once sitting. "I need to talk to you...it is laying pretty heavy on my shoulders. And all I feel is an overwhelming amount of guilt and self discuss." I tell him he stays quiet waiting for me to finish.

"The third night I was there....I got raped by a guard ." I tell him through a clenched up throat I'm trying my best not to cry because I need to get through this I need to get through at least one conversation without crying.

I look at Hyunjin and there are tears in his eyes. This is killing me. "And the fifth night I was there...Namjoon came by to ask me questions I talked back to him and he punished me." I stop taking a deep breath and continue talking looking away from Hyunjin. "After he cut my back he too had raped me.." little whimpers are coming out of my mouth now recalling everything "and at some point of it all my body started enjoying it" I cover my face crying into my hands "and with every moan that came from my mouth I felt disgusted with my self I hate myself that my body was enjoying it but emotionally I hated every second and I feel bad I feel bad because I love you and I wanted that moment with you but instead I got it taken away with someone else and enjoyed it with my rapist.I'm so sorry I love you and only you I don't want you to leave me I needed to tell you because it's what I thought is right." I cry hard now Hyunjin is quiet and doesn't say anything for a moment.

"I'm never going to leave you dummy."

I look up at him and he's smiling at me how can he be so okay? "You had no control over the situation. And sex is supposed to make your body feel good even if you don't want it to. I don't look at you any differently what happened was out of your control I just don't ever want you to think I'm going to leave you. I love you so much more than you could ever imagine. I'm never leaving you okay?"

"Okay" I breath out shakily "can I give you a hug?" He asks I nod my head yes and he comes over into my bed he lays down beside me and I wrap my arms around his waist he hugs me keeping me close and warm into his body resting his cheek in the top of my head.

A/n

I just want to let everyone know that if you have been in a situation where you have been raped or touched in appropriately by someone it's not YOUR fault. My step brother has touched me inappropriately and almost raped me until my brother came in and stopped everything. I told him to stop and it wasn't a good idea I was also only thirteen and he was sixteen.

I didn't know then that it was considered attempted rape until a year ago. The burden lies heavy on me. I haven't told anyone because I'm ashamed. I know it's not my fault and if I do express these feelings I will have support and feel better which most people don't have that support but it's hard to bring myself to telling the people I love. I've kept this to myself for five years. Since I can't bring myself to tell anyone I had my character. Always remember that it isn't your fault and you are still loved ❤️

Also this chapter was a little short but I think I will have the next one longer. 😉