Love you till your last breath... Reader x mitsuri angst

Why couldn't i have been normal?

"Y/n-san!"
Oh how brightly she shone as she ran waving her hands towards me

"Hehe i wanted to ask if you'd like to eat lunch with me today aswell"
Her voice was like music to my ears

Her hair pink like the full blooms of sakuras
"Pft" a chuckle escaped as i thought of how silly i imagined her looking, eating so many sakura mochis to the extent it made her long beautiful hair pink

"You have such beautiful hair mitsuri-sama" kissing a strand of her hair

Her face flushed red to my compliment "E-eh?!"
"No... It's weird" she looked away "anyways we should hurry up, i'm getting hungry, aren't you?!" She grabbed my hand trying to change the subject as we head for whatever shop was opened

I see obanai on a tree glaring at me

"Tch how disgusting..." I mumbled under my breath

I hate obanai
I hate boys
I hate men

They're the reasons why mitsuri was embarrassed and tried to hide her long silky hair

They don't know how to appreciate her at all

They take things for granted easily

They live life easily

If it was me i would take care for her and love her more than anyone could

Mitsuri-sama is so stupid too

Why is she so blind. Why can't she see i'm the one for her

"Meals always tasted better with you iguro..."

Why

"...Because you always looked at me with so much affection!"

Why him

"Iguro please..."

No. Why. Why. Why

"If we're reborn..."

Why him! Why won't you look my way?!

"...And we're reborn as humans... Can i pleade be your bride?"

My heart sunk
My stomach suddenly felt empty
I felt numb as realization set in

I see
The reason i can't be with mitsuri is because... I'm not a man
I'm a girl. Just like mother said, i'm a girl and will always be a girl
How stupid could i be?

"Ha...hahahaha" tears formed as i stood cursing god in my head

Why couldn't i have been born a man?
Why
Why
Why
Was it so hard to give me the body of a man?!

...

Ha
I really am an idiot
I wish i was normal
I wish i was just like the others
Why'd i have to be born wrong?

    -You