To My Almost

Epilogue

Y/N'S POV

I watch her wedding, to be honest, my heart aches and at the same time I know she's in good hands.

I want to stand up and fight for her one last time. But I know fate won't love it so I let it go.

I let her love someone, to be happy even that person is not me. I let her free herself from our past, I let her. I let her go.

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Time passed. It's been a year since she got married. I can say she's happy, news said she's expecting a baby. I have nothing to myself, she's all I got. But I didn't regret letting her go.

People said if you love someone you let them go, even though it will break your heart, make you cry blood, can cause your death.

If letting you be happy means setting you free, then be it. If letting you be okay because I know you deserved every best this world can give, even though it will kill me to death, then be it.

If loving you truly means giving you my heart, I will give it to you, it's nothing and can't beat on its own without you.

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There is a stranger that caught my eyes, I feel familiarity when I see her smile, the familiarity feels like home, and in the blink of an eye and roam the place, the stranger that once was mine, is now held by someone's arms.

I couldn't do anything but stare, can't help but get amazed at how she replaced me in a flash of light. My heart says "take her back" but my mind says "she's happy now so stop". So I chose to follow the command of my mind, though I want her to come back but there's no love anymore so what's the sense of it? We only break each other's hearts. It's hard to accept but do I have a choice? That the person who once was mine, who I pray and wish to the shootings stars, who I promise to be with until my last breath, the one who promised me she will stay until eternity, is now happy and in love with someone.

So I let the familiarity of the stranger linger my every fiber of my being for the last time. I watch them pass me holding hands until the presence of the home is gone and replaced with loneliness. I let the tear escape in my eye, promising myself it would be the last. 

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To my almost,

I hope you are happy, I do. That's my priority. I can't bring myself to give this to you since you are okay, and I don't want to ruin the moment. I saw your pictures around, the smiles that made my day. Your laugh that I can't get tired of listening to it. Your green eyes are like a gate to your soul that im the only one who can go. Your bone-crushing hugs. The way you bite your lips. Your   " um-" every time in your interview that I tease you about when you get home. I know im stupid for reminding myself of it, but how can I remember to forget you? I can't find myself throw these precious memories we make. I love you. I loved you. I wish you the very best in everything. I will still include you in my prayers and every wish when I found a shooting star. If he breaks your heart, I'm always here. I will wait for you even I need to wait forever.

Your not mine anymore, but I'm still a little bit of yours.

Until fate cross our paths again, maybe this time love will prevail. Maybe this time I can now call you mine and you can call me yours.

See you again, my almost.

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This is what I'm thinking at midnight. While I'm taking it to my notes, I'm crying. I mean this is the story of my life, I almost got that person but the universe didn't let us be happy to be with each other. I wrote poems and short stories too afraid to publish them so I add them to my books. Hoping you like it because I do.

I just want to share. That's all. Some of the parts of this will be on the book I'm planning to publish after my first story.

See you in the next book.
-jade