Where am I going if I have to choose just one?

The Cold Truth

(Credit to the original artist)

(Please know I don't really have relationship experience so these are from what I can gather from fanfics) and Tw for sensitive content if you're uncomfortable with any of these topics I am not forcing you to read this also I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS OR ANIME FEATURED IN THIS FANFIC!!!!!)  

Also idc if you hate my writing deal with it UwU

All anyone wants to do after a long day of bullies, homework, schoolwork, and biased teachers, who want us to follow their commands but not follow the ones given to them, is just crash into bed and watch some anime. Yeah, that didn't happen. "y/n" My stepmother called as I was about to make my way down to the kitchen for some ramen and candy. "Y/N!" My stepmother called once again as I hurriedly made my way to the drunk woman who was leaning against the doorframe, 'wow, wasted much' I thought as I tried to help her get to her bedroom, Key word tried because as soon as I went to take her arm, she slapped me across the face. "You brat! Don't touch me! Your worthless father and mother couldn't even stay alive to witness such disappointment! "She screamed before she cackled like the witch she is. 'Heh just wait I'll be gone soon don't worry 'It's true, my father and mother died after the divorce, they were both kind and loving to me but there was dark side of my father I did not know about. Two years after the divorce, my father dated and married Jessica, a girl around the age of 31, who was ten years younger than my dad. My mom and dad fought over custody of me, and my mom unfortunately lost. One night, I'd woken up late to find my dad drunk on the couch mumbling nonsense, I watched him get up from the couch mumbling even more but this time about my 'bitch of a mother for separating from him' and walked out of the house. That morning you were watching the news (yes, the news there were no cartoons on) and saw that both your parents had died in a homicide/ suicide and my father were the killer. After that, my life went to hell, Jessica became my only guardian since your grandparents had died while I was young, and I have no aunts or uncles because both my parents were only children. She abused me mentally and physically leaving scars and bruises all over my arms and legs. Luckily, I had no friends, so no one worried over me and the bandages on my arms which hid the scars from my Stepmother and the cuts I put on myself. I listened to Jessica's drunk ramblings of my worthlessness and at this point, she was running out of ideas on what to call me. When the ramblings were done, I watched her stumble to her room, slam the door, and then crash onto the creaky, cheap bed and pass out. 'Meh she's fine' I thought as I made my way up to my room to watch the only thing that brought me comfort these days, anime, today is Black Butler, though, I do watch other animes(a lot of other animes). The show had people I could relate to and fantasize about! I mean to be honest; I was obsessed! The one I liked most the main character, Ciel Phantomhive, I mean, he's the one I relate mostly to. Ciel and I both lost our parents to the angel of death and both in a gruesome way. I find Ciel lucky somehow though, I mean, all he must deal with physically is being disabled with his asthma while deal with his trauma while I am still physically not okay, and I have trauma and a mental disorder. Yep, I'm diagnosed with a mental condition called Maladaptive Daydreaming. I stumbled to my room and crashed onto my bed checking the time," wow, 4:00pm already?" I mumbled as I hopped into bed and threw open my laptop, fading into a daydream as the Black Butler intro began to play. (For those of you who don't know what that is, it is a condition where your mind creates an alternate universe when your real life is unpleasant, and you end up daydreaming for hours on end its a vicious circle go and look it up)