Heart Beats

Chapter 2 : Insomnia

I returned back home, so tired of rocking the shit out of those people at the club...i was stumbling on my way, and i was rocking back and forth...i was so drunk and so stoned, i had drugs and vodka, maybe it was too much but i had the time of my life...barely made it to the elevator and i struggled remembering on which floor i had my apartment, i reached to my pocket and got my keys, i opened the door and got straight to the kitchen and if i wasn't drunk enough i opened a beer, sat down on the table and made a sandwich for myself, i cleaned everything up then i changed my clothes and took a shower...i got into my bedroom and i found Jenny asleep, she looked so gorgeous, i played with her hair a bit then i took a seat with a photo album in my hand...i started to took at those pics and remember all the memories we had back in Toronto, i wish i could go back in time and live every second we had together. I got into the bed and kissed Jenny on her neck
- Nick is that you ? Oh god you smell like cigarettes and vodka and beer and girls
- Babe just go to sleep we don't need to make a big deal out of it
- Whatever...good night

Then i woke up having a strong headache it's almost 3 pm, i reached to the other part of the bed to hug Jenny...she pushed me away
- Stop it Nick i'm not in the mood ok
- What's wrong ?
- I'm on my period that's it
Some thing is wrong she is lying to me...she had her period a week a go, did i do some thing to her to make her angry ? let's just forget about this
She went to the kitchen to make breakfast and i stayed in the bed like a useless asshole...we had bacon and eggs and then it was time for me to go to the gym since it's my day off
- Jennifer...i'm going to the gym, i won't be late. Do you want anything on my way home ?
- No i'm good... take your time at the gym i'm going to the hair salon right now...i'll buy everything by myself
- Ok then...take care
I got dressed and i took a cab to the local gym, which was a little bit crappy but it does the job. Jack the owner, is a really good man he really knows what's good for his customers...the poor dude just lost his wife in a car crash, i feel sorry for him...and i thank god that I have Jennifer next to me as long as i am breathing.
I took a cab back home...i opened a bottle of beer and i put some music while drinking, time passed, bottle after bottle...i soon got drunk, and suddenly someone opened the door, she wad Jennifer
- Babe is...that....is that you ?
- You look like a huge mess...it's not time for drinking now,
- Is there an occasion today like...somebody's birthday ?
- Yes...i mean no, just forget about it
- Do you wanna get out tonight ?
- No Nick let's just stay in this night
We ordered some pizza...watched a bit of Netflix, then she jumped on my while i was in bed, she wanted to have sex...but didn't she say she was on her period, whatever...sex is sex. It was really awkward, she was angry or mad about something...i went to sleep but i stayed up thinking if i have ever done something wrong to Jenny...but i slept anyway

I woke up...i looked to the other side of the bed, she wasn't there i went to the living room, i found a cake already cut with a note on the side that says :
"Nick...i just wanted to remember you that yesterday was our second anniversary because apparently you forgot...i'm sorry to say it but i'm breaking up with you...you changed a lot since we moved to LA ; drugs, beer, cocaine...you're not used to that shit and neither am I, i really miss the old Nick, i guess i'm doing the best for both of us. I booked a ticket back to Canada and by the time you are reading this i should be at the airport of Toronto...don't call me please"
I could't believe what i have just read, she just dumbed me like this...i can't believe it ! She could have talked to me or helped me quit, but no...breaking up with me makes more sense right ? It's been two years now...two fucking years and she's dumbing me like a dog, well i'm the one to blame after all, i've shouldn't drink, smoke or do drugs in the first place...but seriously how could you possibly leave someone you love so much for such a reason...it's so unfair how life can be such a bitch...this can't happen right now it's the time i will need her the most...i should call her
- Jenny ?!
- I told you not to call me Nick it's over
- No it's not...this whole bullshit you're doing is useless, i need you baby come back home
- I don't love you anymore don't you get it
- Well i still do...and what matters now is us getting back together, i will do my best just like every time...and i'm willing to put everything on the line just for you
- Goodbye Nick...good luck with your life
She hung up on me, i can't believe how such relation can end up just like this...i already talked to her now and she seems convinced with what she's doing, i should move on then...life stills goes on right ? Well that's what i thought, but no it doesn't because i love this girl so much that i can't imagine a day without her...i cried all night, i never cried this hard in my life but what can i do ?
Someone knocked on the door...she was Miss Marry
- Hello Nick...i haven't seen you in a couple of days, i thought my lovely neighbor forgot about me
- Oh hey, miss Marry...sorry for not checking on you, i've been really busy these days
- You've been crying...what's wrong honey ?
- Jenny left me
- Oh...well i'm sorry, she was a great girl...you will find another. Come to my apartment you can talk to me and eat a slice of that lemon pie i just made...you will feel better
At that moment i was like ; why not ? I'm halfway drunk, my girlfriend left me and i'm all by myself now. I got dressed and joined miss Marry at her apartment, I told her about everything...she said that Jenny was right when she left me, because it's hard to see your loved ones destroy themselves slowly by consuming poisons, but she said she should have at least helped me quit.
She's right...Jennifer left me while i was in a total meltdown, but i can do this on my own...who am i lying too ? i need her...
I wasn't going to the club tonight, I'm staying in...probably to get drunk and forget about Jenny, I don't give a fuck if she wants me to quit drinking...I never intend to change just to make her love me again, I guess I need to be single for a while and focus on my carrier...after all I work as a full-time DJ, and it's time to start producing...maybe if I focused more on my music and my work i could forget about her...
I spend two weeks locking myself in the kitchen...literary locking myself, i barely had food to sustain a grown man, i had a bottle of vodka...bottles of vodka to be honest, a mac and my headphones, i stayed there for days...weeks...maybe months, i don't really know. I spent most of the time getting drunk and listening to some good ass Swedish House Mafia tracks. Miss Marry thought that i was dead or something, she called the police and they came and broke into the apartment...i looked at the police man and they looked back at me, i was looking like shit, my jeans were filthy and i smelled really bad
- Son can you hear me ? Said the officer
- Yeah i do...i guess
- How many bottles did you drink ?
- Too many i guess
- We need an ambulance, this dude might die
They carried me to the ambulance...i barely saw things, every thing was blurry...i was thinking that this was it, it's time to leave this world
- What's you name sir ? I need you to answer me
- Nick
- Last name
- Robinson
- I'm the medic sir, stay with me everything will be okay
I passed out as soon as i inhaled that gas they gave me...i woke up in a room...every thing is more clear to me now, i looked to the other side and saw a girl, she was asleep. But then she woke up, i didn't recognize her
- Oh my god Nick thank god
- What happened to me ?
- You had an over-dose and you almost died
- How long was i asleep ?
- 3 weeks
- Oh shit...who are you anyway
- I'm Serena