Living with them weren't the best but you couldn't help but feel the way you did... torwads all of them.
Guilt
The guilt you had felt because you "love" all of them, It was a painful feeling to you. You had hoped that the feeling would just go away on its own but... the more they smiled... talked to you... hell even it was just something nice they did at all, It all made your heart burn.
Anger
you had felt anger torwds yourself because you couldn't get rid of your feelings. It made you angry that you couldn't help but blush if one smiled, It was to the point you sat in the bathroom most days beating yourself up over that feeling... the feeling the you wanted to go away... the feeling that you hated.
Isolation
You wanted them to go away...no... Yon wanted your feelings to go away. Isolating yourself from the world... from them. Hope that it would fix you. You stopped coming out of your room on most days, Stopped dong the thing you always did with them... all over a stupid feeling.... pathetic
Depression
All of it made you sick, even when you keep having the nightmares you would isolate yourself... Even if you craved the "love" they would show you at those's times. The cuddling at 4:00am if you couldn't sleep, The hugs from behind when you would be cooking or getting a drink... you missed it all. You lost on hours of sleep waking up from a nightmare and having to sob in the bathroom wanting the thing to go away... you craved it all
You hated yourself and when you would see how much they would pitty you... it hurt... You wanted to be strong... helpful... pretty. All the things you couldn't be
The way the girls in TV shows look skinny and happy... you wanted that... Just to be happy. Love was a silly thing but it hurt so much. The overthinking that took place in your mind when alone
Acceptance
This was the hard part. Accepting that you loved them... That you needed them.
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