The Life Of Jennifer Malden.

Chapter 2

Journal 2

8/19/14

GoodMorning. Its 6:00 a.m here and it's my first day of 9th grade. Great. So I'm just writing a small entry today because I have to start getting ready. Yeah so I go to Lerry St. Penny's High School. Its a private school. I know my parents actually paid for my school shocker. Their big on education even though they don't give 2 craps about me. Anyways I am NOT looking forward to today. Everyone bullies me. Especially the main one Kelly Santiago. She's the most popular girl at Lerry St.Penny's. I've had every class with her since the 1st grade. She thinks it's so fun to bully me and I don't know why. I've never done anything to her. But oh well I better get ready. Don't wanna be late. (Sarcastically Speaking of course)

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I put my journal away in my desk and walk to the bathroom.
I take a quick shower and get dressed.
I put on a pair of black sweatpants, a big orange hoodie and my black converse. Since I'm already bullied anyway their is no point in impressing anyone since no one would be caught dead talking to me unless their making fun of me.
I throw my hair in a pony tail and walk downstairs. I rarely eat breakfast in the morning because I'm almost ALWAYS running late so I grab a granola bar.

"Mom? Dad?" I yell walking downstairs.
Of course their drunk passed out on the couch. They probably just got home like an hour ago. hm whatever. Like I said I'm used to it.

I grab my granola and head out to the bus stop.

Yup I even ride the bus my life sucks.

The bus arrives and I hop on. Immediately I see so many familiar faces. Everyone from my middle and elementary classes. Lerry St.Penny's is a k-12 school and most of the time the kids that go their for kinder stay until they're seniors therefore I'm stuck with the same people every year. I wish my parents would switch my school but they always said it was too much work.

As I start to walk to the back of the bus one of Kelly's followers spills her smoothie all over my hoodie.
Of course!

"Oops I'm so sorry I didn't mean for that to happen" Kelly's follower says in the most sarcastic tone ever. Then she turns to her other friend and they start laughing along with everyone else on the bus.

Let the trouble begin.

I wipe up whatever I could with the one napkin the bus driver gave to me. I continue towards the back of the bus with my head down as everyone was still looking at me and laughing.

As the bus arrives to school I take out my new schedule and tried memorizing it.
Then I step off the bus and head for my first period.

"Did you like my little treat this morning loser?" Kelly said as her posy stood behind her smiling and giggling.

"I knew you'd be behind this." I said and kept walking.

Obviously she wasn't just gonna let me have the last word so she stuck out her foot and tripped me.
I fell face forward on the tile floor and all my books flew out of my hand.

Kelly kicked my books and kept walking.

I collected my stuff and continued to my homeroom; World History.
As I rounded the corner I saw him.
Derek Garner. The hottest boy in the school. He's the captain of the baseball team and he's had my heart since 1st grade. Unfortunately he's dating Kelly and she made it very clear that if I even look at Derek she'll make me pay. I don't know what that means but I know it's not good so I keep my distance.

As I pass by Derek, he looks up at me and smiles. I quickly turn my head and continue walking hoping no one saw. I couldn't take anything else happening to me today. School hasn't even started yet and I've already been embarrassed twice.

As soon as I sit down in my seat the bell rings.
I look around to see who's in my first period and you'd never believe it.
Of course Derek and Kelly.
Why does this have to happen to me.
Whatever. I've ignored them before and I could easily do it again.

"Good Morning class please take your seats"

"Ok so today we are going to be doing a quick little introduction day where everyone gets to say their name and 2 things about them" My history teacher Mr.Ross says.

"Oh great" I say to myself hoping no one heard but of course someone had to hear.

"Since your so eager to talk why don't you go first Mrs...." Mr.Ross says waiting for me to say my name.

"Malden. Jennifer Malden" I say standing up walking towards the front.

"Ok." I say taking a deep breath.
"My names Jennifer Malden I'm 15 years old. I like to swim and dance. thanks" With that I walk back to my seat and slump down so no one would look at me.
"Wow what a loser!" Kelly scuffs.
"My turn." She says as she walks up to the front of the classroom.
"Hi my name is Kelly Santiago. I'm 15 years old and my hobbies consist of riding my pony and singing!!" She says while singing the word singing. The class claps for her and she flashes me one of her bitchy smiles.

I scuff and turn away.
Once everyone finished introducing themselves there was only 5 minutes left of class so Mr.Ross gave us free time. I thought maybe I'd try to go talk to someone but as soon as I turned around Kelly and Derek were in a full on make out session. It was so intense I thought they'd have sex right there in the classroom. It's not like Kelly isn't a virgin. Everyone knows she lost it at 14.

Well the rest of the day went really well I have 3rd,5th and 7th period with Derek and not Kelly so I'm happy about that. But then I have 4th with Kelly and no Derek which means that she could be extra mean to me knowing that Derek won't stop her, cuz he has done it before 2 years ago and never again.

As I was walking on to my bus I see Kelly and Derek driving away in his new car.
"Awe look at the loser riding on the bus because she doesn't have an older boyfriend to drive her anywhere." Kelly shouts as they drive away.

**Oh yeah I forgot to mention Derek is in 11th grade. I take 11th grade classes as a freshman so that's why I have so many classes with him.**

As soon as I got home I ran upstairs shut and locked my door and went into the bathroom. I reached into the cabinet and pulled out my little box that held my razor. I began to cut watching the blood ooze out. This is the only way for me to escape all the pain Kelly and her friends have caused me. There is nothing else I can do. I have to do this.

I clean up myself and get ready for bed. Then I stare up at the ceiling until I finally knock out.