It's what hides behind.

I know most days I am not good enough. I know that this period in my life is for myself and only myself. For fixing myself, so days like these don't happen ever again. I say days like it hasn't been the last 3 months. When you wake up everyday to the same thing you lose track of time I guess. I'm not saying waking up to the same thing everyday is a bad thing. I long for the day where I wake up with a routine of positive activities. Each activity in the day must have an outcome of physical, mental, and spiritual growth. Most activities, as of right now, simply break me more each day. It's just a bad time. Yk. It'll get better eventually. It'll just take time. Most days I see my family and friends. It's just a distraction from what hides. I'm so glad I have them. Friends, family, work, exercise, school, and eating even. It's all a distraction from what hides. I'd be held down by what hides behind me if I didn't have any excuse to run away. Running away from IT is a hobby I figure. Maybe some days or weeks, or months even, I may jog little. Until then, I will run. I will run for the entirety of my eternity.