I am now 16 years old i do not struggle with depression anymore and i don't let society control me i do what i want mostly. I have a car now and i drive sometimes just to clear my mind from all the bull crap that goes on around me and in my life. I have put probably $600 worth of speakers in my car because i have always had a dream since i was a kid to have subwoofers in my car once i got one. Well i got a tattoo at the age of 16 and i got it for my grandfather on my dad's side of the family he would always listen to me and he was a good role model to me. He passed away after i got out of the mental hospital and stopped seeing a therapist and it hit me that everyone i love will eventually leave me. But life doesnt stop because one thing happened or another thing life keeps moving. No matter how much you want to give up life continues with or without you. I have heard a quote from someone and i says "God gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers". This qoute has stuck with me for years and i am thinking about getting it tattooed on my arm where i can read it anytime i am feeling sad because i know God is putting me through these things to make me the person i am. He is putting me through these obstacles in life to make me stronger not to hurt me.
