Heart without a beat

a smile can hide everything

I find it funny that all my "friends" say that they know me,

but if they really knew me they would know,

i fake a smile so i dont worry people, 

i dont want everything to be about me,

i dont want to ruin my friends happiness so i keep everything inside,

i smile and say im okay,

I cut just to feel something instead of the numb feeling eating at my insides,

People always think im so happy and strong,

they all think im the "bull doser",

that i can take anything and everything this world throws at me,

i laugh loud,

i smile alot,

i talk loud and consiently,

But they do not realize that,

i cry myself to sleep every day,

i have already written my suicide note,

every day is a struggle,

i smile to cover everything up, 

and they believe me,

A smile can hide everything...

Dont believe someone when they say there fine,

most times they are praying you will see,

see how dull there eyes have become,

see how loud there screaming at you to see,

see how far they are in the darkness,

i say im fine,

but really i just want someone who will see,

look into my eyes and see,

that im breaking,

even if im smiling,

im dyeing inside...