I'm never enough. I know that very well. Everyone has their happily ever after. Why not me? What did I do to not have my happily ever after? Maybe just because I'm one of the unlucky ones. Maybe I did something in my past life and deserved this. I don't know. I've tried to leave this world by my own knife or by my own pills but, I'm obviously still here.
Now, here I am, an adult and alone. Yeah I'm smart. But it's gone to waste. No one stays. Yeah I have my mom and siblings. But looking at them, I can't help but feel so low. Some have families. Some have successful jobs. Some have lovers. And here I am with nothing. I've so wished for my happily ever after. But I can't ever have what I want. The world is unfair. And the world doesn't care. The world choose some for greatness and leaves the rest to rot. Why do good things happen to bad people but bad things happen to good ones?
I'm not good or bad. I've just tried living. I can't with this life. How many more times will I fall? How many more times will I cry out and hope for the better? I tried to treat myself fairly, keep myself up. But I'm never enough for that either. It reminds me how I'm so alone.
Sad truth.
Not every story has a happy ending, and I am one of them.
