I am good for a while.
I'll talk more, laugh more.
Sleep and eat normally.
But then something happens.
Like a switch turns off somewhere.
And all I am left with is the darkness of my mind.
But each time it seems like I sink.
Deeper and deeper.
And I am scared...
Terrified that one day I wont make it back up.
I feel like I am gasping for air.
Screaming for help.
But everyone just looks at me.
With confused faces.
Wondering what I am struggling over.
When they're all doing just fine.
And it makes me feel crazy.
What the hell is wrong with me?