Love will save me

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A/N I edited chapter 1 and it is somewhat different soo I'm just letting you know
TRIGGER WARNING
The day whizzed by as all of my classes piled on more and more work due that I would never even get to start. So let me explain myself and my past a bit. My dad died in a horrible car wreck that also killed my brother. After that my mom remarried to a drunk and she really tried to get him to stop. After a while he just got worse and somewhere along the way, my mom decided to join him. However, she occasionally got beat by my stepdad. Every day that went by got worse and worse until one day my stepdad started beating me. My mom just watched until she started doing it too. A few years later my stepdad left. Now I am rarely fed, and if I am it is usually what's left of the meal. I live in the cold basement with nothing but a notebook and a pen. I sleep on the floor. I clean everything in the house. My sister try's to stop the daily beatings but I keep her back. I don't want her getting hurt. I tell my twin everything except for one thing. My stepdad was worse then anyone ever knew. I was often alone with him and he... He has raped me multiple times. I've never told anyone. My sister is my light. She stops me from doing the worse, however she can't stop me from cutting myself. My mom has seen my cuts and she doesn't care and I've never shown anyone those either. I have a
lot of secrets that I'm not allowed to tell. I only need one person to make me feel better, Like I can escape. My sister is amazing don't get me wrong, but she is family. I can't risk her getting hurt. I need love. Love will save me.
A/N I was crying when I wrote this. I'm sorry if it was a bit too much but you don't have to read it. This helps me get my feelings out in an exaggerated way.