Suicide

The start

I guess it all started way back when, 5th grade to be more precise. I was just to stupid to even notice. 

"hey, think fast!" Someone would say as they violently thrusted a dogeball at my face

'That's weird i thought we were on the same team? maybe he's a spy,' and i'd just shrug it off.

  I guess it didn't matter because when i came home all i would do was do my 1 page of easy multiplication and then go play outside until dinner time then eat dinner shower and pick out clothes then brush my teeth and go to bed. I wasn't in therapy every tuesday yet i didn't hang out with my "friends" back then i didn't have to worry about crushes, hating me because i was, "too weird." Life was so much less stressing back then. Hell if i could i'd just build a time machiene and go back. But that wouldn't work i'd just be an 8th grader in 2009. Look at me bringing logic into things, I hate myself so much sometimes. But i feel as if you would never know. I always try to stay postive but more often than not i find it hard to hide it my pride is no longer inside it. Then i get sad, and when i get sad i just want to be left alone, the excat opposite of what my mom wants which is to talk about it. She'll kepp pestering me then i keep being short and as a result she gets mad and then i get mad and nothing goes right. Thats my life ladies and gentleman.

      But anyway sorry i got off track a little there. Like i said it all started back in the 5th grade.

"Tanner you're a nerd." One of my supposed best friends Amy said.

"Thank you i guess" i responded. Might i mention that back in the 5th grade i literally said i guess at the end of almost everything. it was like my trademark.

I'm relaying ireelevant facts, what i need to tell you is the important parts.

   So, critize me like everyone else it was technically 4th grade but at this point i dont even care anymore. I liked this girl named Rebecca, and i told my so called best friend Randy. Well it turns out Randy liked Rebecca, as they ended up dating in 5th grade. So Randy hatched a villians logic plan that was so incredibly stupid that it worked. He slipped that i like her to Adam, who told Jake who told Emma, you get the point. By the end of the day the whole fourth grade knew, but i didn't know they knew. I didn't know until everyone on my bus started chanting "TANNER LIKES REBECCA, TANNER LIKES REBECCA"

     That had to be the worst day of my life, my elementary school life.