I'm done. My step dad gives no shit about me. He yells at my constantly and makes me feel bad about everything I do. When I need to vent to someone, I feel annoying. I adjust how I act for other people. I feel like whenever I type something I annoy whoever is reading the text. I'm scared of losing people. I have so many fears built up and it's starting to hurt so much. I randomly ignore people for no reason and just shut everyone out. I'm tired. I can't sleep. I don't feel good. I hate my body. I hate my breasts. I hate having almost everyone's dream body. I hate how I look. I hate everything about myself. I hate how I act. I hate how I speak. I hate it. I hate it. Everytime I do something I feel like it's wrong. I will stop venting to people. I don't like being sad all the time. I don't like being the one who's suicidal and makes jokes about other people's flaws. I'm tired of myself. I want to someday just- Say goodbye to everyone and hang myself. I'm done. I can't do it. I hate this world. I'm tired of feeling annoying. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being yelled at. I'm tired of saying "I'm fine" to everyone. I'm tired of being rude. I'm tired. And yet there is nothing I can do. I want to die but yet I'm scared. I'm scared for those who know me. I'm scared for those who need me. I'm scared. But I'll stay the same. I'll keep making you hurt even when it hurts me. Because that's what I do. I'm toxic. I'm rude. I deserve the worst. I comfort some and than hurt them. I hate myself. I hate everything about myself. And for those who actually care about me, thank you.
