TW: abusive family stuff, transphobia, & ableism
i draw a frowny face in the carpet with my fingers, half asleep and on the verge of tears. i'm really not excited about the pep rally thing.
normal pep rallies are terrible anyway, but anne is usually next to me the whole time. but today, i'm alone.
it's not like i can't deal with being without anne & sasha, but being alone combined with the pep rally AND not having my ear defenders is just... bad. i mean, at least sasha is gonna give me some makeshift ear defenders and i'll be close to ok.
but whatever. i open my phone to see sasha telling me she couldn't find the stupid headphones, and i'll be alone and stupid and everything is stupid and i'm stupid and life is stupid.
cynthiac0v3n: that's ok, sash! i'll be ok :)
SHIT!
why did i just LIE to him like that? it doesn't make sense. i hate liars, i hate people that lie about stupid stuff like this. and why would i even lie to her? it's not like he'd freak out if i wasn't ok. it's just so STUPID of me.
i roll around and then grab my favorite shirt. an oversized light beige shirt, reading 'Vagabondia Chronicles' and a picture of my favorite character. it's so cozy, i wanna just cuddle up to it and never move. today is the only day i can wear it to school, because sasha convinced the principal it was, and i quote, "against the americans with disabilities act" if he wouldn't let me wear it today, so now i guess i can wear this shirt.
i slip on some sweatpants and my usual hoodie, and shove my stuff in my backpack. i would try to convince myself today's gonna be fun, but that wouldn't be true.
i walk out of my room, eyes shut tight just in case. to my surprise, my dad says nothing, and my mom is still asleep. i try to open the door without him noticing, but he stops me with a cold hand on my shoulder.
"you seem very upset, marcy. do i need to pull you from school, or take you to the local special ed school? it would be better for you, after all." he's trying to convince me he's being reassuring, but his tone is just angry.
"i'm ok, and i'm doing just fine in public school. thanks for caring about me, though." i mumble, just trying to get to school.
"ok, but don't come crawling to me when you have an... episode at school. and don't be caught up in the new trends i've seen sasha and whatever that boy's name is get into." he's talking about being gay or trans. he's deep into transphobia that he still calls anne "whatever that boy's name is" because he literally doesn't know her deadname. it's kinda funny, but not the greatest when anne comes over to my house.
"are you talking about anne? she's a girl dad." i yell as i walk out the door.
"sure he is!" he screeches, his voice reeking of fragile masculinity.
i finally get on the bus and tighten my hoodie strings so you can't even see my face. it's nice and cozy like this.
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pep rally (sashannarcy hurt/comfort)
Fanfictiontoday at saint james' middle school, there's a huge pep rally and in-school tennis game. sasha, head of the cheerleaders and anne, captain of the tennis team, could not be more excited. however, the game gets too loud for marcy and they don't have s...
