The one you had thrown away //WMMAP//

Chapter 3

It has been a few weeks since that day. Around 3 weeks to be specific. The preparations was finished in about 10 days because of how competent and talented my sister is. I was hesitating whether I would want to carry out the plan earlier than planned. I decided to go against that. Why? I don't know. Maybe deep inside my heart I had hoped that His Majesty would remember that I exist and finally look at my way.  I guess that was just wishful thinking.

I knew. I knew that he wouldn't do that.

The plan will be finally be carried out in 3 days. My heart felt like sinking. Although my time here recently hasn't been pleasent, I still have pleasant memories of his place.

As I stared down to look at the garden from my balcony, I saw Claude with Diana, smiling happily with hands intertwined. The stabbing pain in my heart and the churning feeling in my stomach was anything but comfortable.

Claude looked at Diana like she was the only being in this world besides him. The affection was prominent and I find myself wondering what can I do to make him look at me like that? Even once is fine.

But it's over. I won't ever find myself hoping for anything from that man again. Not when I have someone even more precious that will be coming into this world soon. To the baby I'm carrying, to the precious child tha t hadn't even born yet, this world may be cruel and judgemental, but this mother of yours will try her best to show you the beautiful things that reside in this world. I'll raise you with my love, even if I' unexperience.

If you ever find out how filthy this world is. I will wish that you will never lose the light in your eyes.

I find myself caressing my stomach and I think to myself.

Glancing at the blonde couple that was chatting happily in the garden one last time, I looked away and entered my room. Wanting to not see him at all in this period of 3 days, fearing that my resolve would crumble.

Smiling bitterly,  let out my scoff. He wouldn't even care anyways.

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"Your highess," Cecile, one of my lady in waiting greeted me.

"What is it, Cecile?"

"Forgive me if I may seem imprudent, but I can't help but to notice your declining health ever since... Lady Diana entered the harem. Are you alright, your highness?"

I felt my breath hitch. It's true that i was a little bit skinnier than what I used to look like and my eyes wasn't as bright as it used to be. Honestly, I didn't expect anyone to notice the small details that had been changing in me.

I smiled at her, a little bit touched at her consideration.

"Yes, my dear. I'm fine. Don't worry about me. If anything, how are you with Terry?"

Terry is an imperial knight in the palace. It was no secret that Cecil and him was happily dating.

Almost immediately, her face flushed and there was a prominent blush on her face.

"To be honest, Your Highness.. he proposed to be a week ago, so I'm quite happy. I can't believe that I am going to get married to someone that treats me like I am his world.

I smiled at her and congratulated her, hoping she would be happy. I feel bad for not being able to attend her wedding ceremony, even though I think of her as one of my closest friends.

I felt drained, even though I didn't do much today. I asked for Cecile to leave since I was going to retire early for today.

She bowed and left the room. Laying down on the comfortable bed, I find myself drifting to sleep. Hoping that the days will pass by quickly.

Three days had passed...

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I'm sorry for the late update. I was procrastinating a lot and didn't finish my stack of homework that was due this week. Soooo yesh.

Next chapter is the dayyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Excited?