all the mistaks

my back story

hi im lilly and i kinda have a fucked up life i live with my dad because my mom died when i was two years old in a car crash she was in the hospital for three years so i still got to see her and meet her.i visit her every week but i couldn't every day because of school but one day she had to go and after that day i never remembered her to this day.

flash back

me and my mom were hanging out until i heard a "beb beb beb beeeeebbbb"i got so scared"MOM MOM SOME ONE HELP PLEASE ANYONE"i ran to a doctor"I NEED HELP IN ROOM 9268"i yelled to the doctor we ran to her room and she was having a stroke"WE NEED HELP IN ROOM 9268 NOW"the doctor yelled"mom mom your going to be okay and i want you to know that i love you and i always will and i will never let you go i don't care what anyone says"i cried out yelling to her while being pushed out her room her last words were"i love you to sweetie now go...go home i don't want you to see this but i love you so so much"I LOVE YOU WAY MORE"i said crying even harder"I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU"then they closed the door i didn't leave until they told me she didn't make it i started crying again i started thinking of what happens when i go home and what am i going to do without her"FUCKKKKKK"i yelled crying harder.

done flash back

lilly's pov

so ya that wasn't the best day of my life but you know what im kinda glad that she gone...because my dad use to hit her for no reason.when she see that a saw what my father did to her she was so sad she tried to tell me that my father was a good person and that he was just mad at her.but that doesn't make it any batter.i promised her that i would kick his ass when she leaves and he will regret doing all that stuff to her.i never thought that he was a good person...or... a bad person and when i saw my father hit my mother i wanted to fucking kill the son of a bitch.but now that my mother is gone he hits me so me and him some times get in to all kinds of fights because some times i stick up for myself  witch my mother never did even tho she should of and it's most of the time.one time my dad had to go to the hospital because of me.it was because he tried to kick me because he was mad that he didn't get a job that he really wanted so he tried to kick me but i grabbed his foot and pushed him but the problem was that i pushed him down the stairs.i broke his lag but it was his fault because if he didn't try to kick me it wouldn't of happened.but im in high school and it sucks because i always get bullied for the way i look how i look how smart i am even tho im the smartest kid in my class and they always say aww i feel so bad that your mom die but i bet she's way happier that she's not here with you she probably hated you i always just think that she says that because her mom probably hates her and she wants to put all the pain on me but it doesn't work that much but sometimes it does...but that probably why and they make fun of the way my body is and i already hate the way my body is so i don't know why they want me to feel worse about it...then i have my teacher that hates me because i don't like to do work in this school because my mom went to this school when she was young and i tried to tell him but he didn't care...i don't thing she should be a teacher if she's going to act like that to the students some students have problems with there familys and they probably need to take a brake for a few day or weeks even but if people do have problems with there family you shouldn't make fun of them or give them a hard time doing stuff because they probably are sad and don't have the energy to do anything.