THE REAL AUTHOR of Badass Lesbian Half Vampire!!! Questions Answered!!!!

2022 Announcement!!!

Finishing What I Started!

I know most of the fans of Lesbian Half Vampire are feeling like I came in, threw them a right hook, them left the on a cliff edge! I’m sorry, that was never my intentions! I feel I owe you all an explanation of things. But before I do, I want to let everyone know that I have finally decided, after almost 4 years of deliberation and anxiety, I WILL be uploading my revised Half Vampire Lesbian story! The info on it is below, but please read through my entire post!

As I said in my last posting, I renamed this series a long time ago! And have been working on it for many years on and off, while dealing with my chaotic life! I have been debating on posting this for years, since finding out about the copyright infringement. I was scared about it happening again! Or even worse, someone saying I took it from the person who took it from me! So I kept holding back, still hoping that I’d be able to just do mainstream publishing. But, believe it or not, publishing is not as easy as handing your novel over to some company! It costs money, time, energy! Other people having a say in what and how I write! That is not what I wanted for my series. I don’t want someone telling me how I should write a scene, or what character I need to remove! I wanted it written the way this story has played out in my mind for the last 18 YEARS!

I have been writing and re-writing this story for years! I’ve lost it several times due to computer issues, hard drive corruptions, and just plain clumsiness! I’ve had it stolen from me, and had someone else’s name on it and published without my consent! I’ve spent countless hours awake, writing it out of passion! I’ve cried numerous times and thought about giving up on it altogether! But I haven’t given up! I can’t! This series has been my life for so long! It has my life and experiences written in those words! It has been my therapy, my inspiration and my literal baby for so long! And publishing it would be a dream, if I were able to publish it my way. And no other avenue will allow me to the way I want without costing me an arm and a leg! So I want to publish it myself, here. In the way it was meant to be!

I want to publish it for the people who wanted it. Who spoke of how it helped them in some way or the other! For the people who have felt like they would never get to finish it. So, even if I am scared that something will happen, or people won’t like the changes I made, or if my changes are bad, if no one reads it or if my writing still sucks after all these years! I’m going to do it! Not just for the fans of it, but for me!

The story in my head still feels unfinished, still feels like it needs work and editing. But what I’ve learned of myself, is that I’m a perfectionist! And nothing will ever get done If I keep procrastinating because I’m too stubborn to just let it be! So I’m only allowing myself one edit of each chapter before I post! And hopefully with that limitation, I can just put it out there and face my fears.

I know I explained everything that happened with the original story and why this situation has happened. But I want to formally let anyone know what happened who isn’t aware of it before I start posting the series!

If you are already aware and don’t wish to read this explanation, then you can disregard this section and go to where it says below: Explanation End, in bold and underlined. But I know my hasty response in 2018 to what happened is very scatter-brained! So if you wish to understand better, than please keep reading.

Past Situation Explanation

For anyone who doesn’t know, I am the original author of I’m a Badass Gothic Half Vampire Lesbian. A book I began posting to Quizilla in the story section around the age of 14 in 2008-2009. Quizilla was a website owned by TeenNick that shut down around 2014 I began writing it as a short story for my then high school girlfriend for her birthday! It started out as just a cute little piece I wanted to do for her! At the time, I didn’t have money to buy her a gift. Our birthdays fell on the same day with only a year apart, and she had got me something really nice. So, of course, I felt I needed to give her something that was heartfelt, if I was unable to buy something nice for her as well.
At the time, I was a very typical gothic/emo stereotype! I loved anime, hardcore metal music and wearing black! I was very much into vampire lore and reading!
So, I decided to write a short story of a vampire who was in love with a human! How original, right? But I wanted it to be about a vampire girl, falling for a human girl! I had never read a vampire/human love story with LGBT characters before! In fact, my girlfriend and I both loved reading. And we always talked about why there was not a lot of books that had any LGBT characters! Not even just from a romance point of view either, but just supporting characters! None that actually were openly written as LGBT. Some books were out there, obviously! But no where near the amount of variety we wished there was.

So I began writing a short story, the characters were based off of myself and my girlfriend's likenesses! And I added a sci-fi/fantasy theme to it! The original was only a few pages long and just consisted of the romantic elements of my original draft of the series. I wrote it out, all by hand!

My girlfriend and I were on rocky turf because of her parents not understanding her sexual orientation! They refused to even give me a chance as just a person who cared for their daughter! They chose to dislike me the moment they met me! So I was very rarely allowed to see her outside of school and social events. So when she had her birthday party, I wanted to surprise her with my gift and figured that we would have a semi alone moment where I was able to give it to her.  Which, thankfully, we did! And I was able to give it to her to read later on when she had time after the party. But one of our friends had interrupted our moment, and grabbed the folded papers from her hands! I was angry and tried to get him to give it back, but he actually asked me to let him keep reading because he liked it a lot! That surprised me! So when my girlfriend asked if I was comfortable with it, I said okay!
So our friend read it aloud while the three of us sat at a picnic table in front of the community center where my girlfriend’s party was taking place. I felt a bit embarrassed because this was meant for her only. And at the time, I was not very confident in my writing skills. But when our friend finished reading, both he and my girlfriend were asking for me to finish it. That they needed to know what else there was. I told them it was just for fun and that I didn’t plan on writing more. But they continued to encourage me to finish the story so that they could read it. So I decided I would write a couple of chapters for them. Something just for them to enjoy and be done.

Well, after I brought them the newly wrote out story to them to read, my girlfriend and our friend wanted more. I told them no, that I was done. That it wasn’t that good and there was no reason to keep going. I didn’t budge and left it at that. My girlfriend tried convincing me that she loved it so much, she needed more. But I truly didn’t believe that what I wrote was good enough that anybody would take it seriously! To me, it was only a silly, half attempt at a gift for my girlfriend, because I didn’t have the money to buy her a real gift! But both her and our friend wanted to prove to me that it was more than that. So, they took my story to our other friends to read for themselves. And what I never expected was the amount of friends who came to me asking for me to finish this story for them! I had never actually felt like I was good at anything I did! So hearing this, made me feel confidence for the first time! And I told them that I would try my best to deliver!

Everyday after that, I came home and started writing! I thankfully was able to stop handwriting the story and switch to typing(What a life saver)! I would write my ideas down in my notebook while I was at school or away from my computer!  I would daydream all day about what I could put into this story and what my characters would look like, act like, sound like! What music fit which scenes! I played it out like a movie in my head! Stitching each chapter together until months later, I had enough to fill out the novel! Finally, I sent it to my friends. They immediately loved it and told me that they couldn’t put it down. One of my friends said I needed to post it online. At the time, I didn’t really know how posting a full novel online worked! So my friend told me about Quizilla and how she read stories on there all the time. And how mine would do so well on there! I told her that I only wrote it for them. But she asked me to please try just a few chapters and see how it went.

So I did. I created an account and went under the username: purplebloodedvampire! And began my journey of posting there! I would edit my chapters and re-write them out when I needed, then posted them. Every week, I saw that my readers would go up, and I was getting more and more messages! I couldn’t believe people actually liked it and were asking for more! People even began to make banners! A banner for your story was a big deal at the time on Quizilla! I was so shocked but happy, and continued posting every week or so!

But of course life got in the way. Things happened that kept me from posting. My updates got further and further apart. And then, when I was 17, I found out my girlfriend of 4 years had been cheating on me. I was in such a bad depression that I didn’t care to write anymore. We had been together for so long, she had become my life at that point! People began to believe we would be together for the rest of our lives! Her parents still never accepted me, but mine had accepted her as part of the family. Once we had gotten older, she was practically at my house all the time with me! We had even started planning college together! I knew we were young, but I truly believed we were that high school couple that ends up stating together for life! So it was absolutely devastating to me, that she had broken my trust and hurt me beyond belief! I may have been young, but that pain from that moment has stayed with me! With the breakup and everything else that I had going on it my life at the time, I just stopped writing for a couple years and really lost touch with any part of my creative side!

By the time I was ready to write again, Quizilla had shut down! And my story was gone. Only a few people I had met on there stayed in contact. And I did not attempt to upload anywhere else except for a site called mibba, which was very short lived. I only posted 22(23 but one got deleted) chapters to Quizilla before I stopped writing. But I always kept the story in my head, and on a thumb drive. The computer I began officially writing on, had died on me. And later on, the thumb drive I had the original on, corrupted when I plugged it into my brothers laptop! So I started over many times before I finally got it where I was able to keep it safe and have multiple backups! I worked on perfecting it for years.

In 2018, I found that a user on Wattpad had shared my story here. But no credit was given. The banner was the same as one that had been made for me when I was on Quizilla. So I knew that this person was a fan from those days. They hadn’t changed anything about the story, everything was copied and pasted as it was originally posted! So I attempted to talk to this person to see why they did this with no credit given. But I got no response and they blocked me. I responded to comments on the story to let everyone who was asking why the story was not being updated, to let them know why! I then made a post talking about who I was and what was happening. I then left everyone who wanted me to continue my work on a cliff by debating if I wanted to put myself out there again. It hurt because this story was my life! IS my life! I wasn’t upset because I wanted recognition for it. But because this has been apart of my life for so long, and has so much of me in it! It felt like someone was taking all my past experiences and memories from me and saying I didn’t live through it! I didn’t work through it by using this story as my escape! As my security blanket when I had nothing and no one! That on my darkest days, thus wasn’t the only thing keeping me from losing my sanity! As crazy as it sounds, this series has been my savior in a lot of ways! And for someone to take it, it felt like they were taking away the thing that kept me grounded and had been a constant in my life so long!

Here I am! At the backend of 2021 still debating if putting it back out there is a good idea after all of that! Afraid that the thing that’s been a constant in my life for so long, would be taken away again! I know I’m not a perfect writer. I know that there’s a chance that someone, somewhere will attempt to take my work as their own. I know there’s always someone who won’t like something about it! But I feel that after all these years of this book series consuming my everyday life, I’m ready to put it back out there in its revised form! I’m ready to set my baby free! And let whatever happens, happen! And mostly, because of the people who still just want to simply read it!

End of Explanation

I want to just put this out there! So let’s see if people think this series is worth all I’ve put into it! This is my heart and soul! So I only ask that no one tries to take this series and call it their own! That’s my only plea that I wish people will follow and respect! If you don’t like it and feel you have to say something, I won’t argue! If you have criticism or advice, I will gladly accept and take it in! If you like it and want me to continue, I will happily post the additional parts I have written out!  If it gets zero reads and no feedback, at least I put it out there! I’m trying to not give into any of anxiety about it and just go for it! So I’m going all in on this!

Like I said, I’m a perfectionist. That doesn’t just stem to my writing either. My life is chaotic still to this day, and I am pretty full up on responsibilities! So I can’t promise I will have a chapter out right on a specific day or time. But what I can promise, is that it will be up! I’m not giving up on this and will deliver every single chapter that belongs to this series!

With the holidays right on us, I can’t post the first chapter until the beginning of the year! So, I’m giving myself until the 15th of January to get it up on here! That gives me enough time after the holidays to do a final edit of it since I haven’t touched the first chapters for a long time. I’ve mostly been editing the other parts in the series! And an extra week in case of any emergencies or other issues! But I will do my absolute best to put it up before if possible. But for now, officially it will be up the 15th of January! This series will be posted to Wattpad ONLY!

So, with that, I hope everyone who was fans of the story and wish to continue it will enjoy it once its out! If anyone has any suggestions or questions I’m keeping my notifications on and will answer them as soon as I can! Just please be patient with me! For anyone new, I hope you will enjoy this story and give me your feedback if it’s worth it! I appreciate all of you who have stayed fans and still hoped to see this to its end! Your messages of kindness and of how this story helped you in some way, has been the biggest reason why I want to put this story back out there! So thank you all, and I hope that you all will like the final revisions! And I hope to see any feedback you have!

Without further wait, I present;
The Halfling Chronicles
A revised and completed version of my original Half Vampire Lesbian story!
First Chapter to be posted: January 15th 2022
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Love & Light,
Amberlynn.
(LadyGrenade, SicSlipknotChik, amberrangger & purplebloodedvampire)