𝔓𝔯𝔦𝔫𝔵𝔦𝔢𝔱𝔶 𝔒𝔫𝔢𝔰𝔥𝔬𝔱𝔰

☹︎ not one to cry ☔︎

† Virgil's pov †
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      It's not like I wanted to be this way. I am and always will be seen as the bad guy, The witch who cursed the girl,... A parasite.

Despite how much I am reminded of this, it doesn't make it hurt any less.

I listen outside of my door to hear if anybody was coming. I crack my door slightly and mentally took note of where everyone was.

Princey was singing in the kitchen where Patton was cheering in validation. Logan was either downstairs among them or in his studies, I could hear Remus and Janus bickering in the 'west wing' (the not so good side of the house.)

Good, All of them are our of my way.

I close and lock the door thinking back on my life and all the avoidable screw ups I've made. Nearly all of them pertaining to Roman and I.

"Of course he hates you, you always get in his way. Besides who could stomach to look at a scruffy, insignificant, nobody such as yourself."

I thought this to myself on repeat. Each time stinging in a different way. All I really ever wanted was to be loved, to be cared for, to be seen as anything but a bother... I guess love was just never made for people like me.

The more I tortured myself with the heartache of loving someone who could hardly look at me, I noticed the stream of tears on my cheeks. I hadn't noticed them till now. It's been so long since I've allowed myself to feel so strongly of anything.

I've decided that now was a better time than any to let go. I stopped caring about who could hear, how much It would hurt, I just stopped.

It wasn't until a little later I heard the knocking on my door over my cries of pain.

"Vee! You good in there? Patton's getting worried... And I as well I suppose."

"Well don't worry about me your royal majesty, no need to worry yourself with a lowlife such as myself, I'm fine anyway...Just leave me alone." I say the last part in a near whimper. I pull the covers over my head to shut out the only light coming through my window.

"Anxie-... Virgil...please, talk to me."

I was taken aback to hear the sincerity in his voice, despite all of the red flags that tell me not to, I open the door for him.

I glims at myself in the mirror next to my door to see my red and bloodshot eyes and shiney cheeks, I try to hide behind my bangs.

I unlocked and cautiously opened the door.
"Hey there sunshine what's the matter?" He bends down in a crouching stance to make eye contact with me.

I am speechless and in utter shock how is this the same Roman who called me all of those horrible things?

I don't know why but I just broke down, I had no control over anything anymore. He asked me if it was okay to hold him I managed to shake my head in between sobs.

"Shh it's okay, it's okay, your knight in shining armor is here too protect you."

He doesn't even know what he's doing to me is he? "I'm sorry.... I'm sorry.....I'm sorry." I repeated under my breath, There was so much I felt guilty of no way of expressing it.

"You have no need to be sorry, if anybody should be sorry here it's me."

He gently guided me to my bed and without thinking I sat in his lap.

"Vee, I feel I have treated you poorly for simply being different than the others and that is unexcusable and unprincely. Long story short... I'm sorry, I hate to think you're feeling this way because of me." He rested his forehead on my shoulder, I pulled him into an embrace, it seemed like the best thing to do.

We stayed there in comfortable silence for God knows how long in our own utter bliss.

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𝑎/𝑛

𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑠𝑛𝑡 𝑒𝑥𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑥𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑦 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑒𝑛𝑗𝑜𝑦, 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 ♡︎