Psycho love

𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 10 - 𝒌𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈

The next few days i tried to keep my distance from rafe even though he got very mad at me and kept begging me for sex. I wouldn't give in. He would never show we affection that wasn't sex. No cuddles. No sweet kisses.no dates. No holding hands. He only did that when we first met and when we staring dating. Lately he just seems like he doesn't want me anymore. I still had that thought about killing him but I loved him. It was the right things to do.

I picked the gun out the draw under some clothes on rafes side of the room. The gun was good against my finger tips. I checked for bullets and there was one left. One shot. One shot at it would be over. I know the more I stood here the more I would try to convince myself not to do it so I shoved the gun in my pocket of my trousers and walked down the stairs to find rafe. I looked all around the house until I saw him standing on a balcony on the phone. I walked over getting my hand in the gun ready. He turned around and saw me , his eyes widened and he slowly moved the phone away from his ear and said.

"I'll call you back." And that was it.

I stood there as he's eyes were looking at me searching for an answer of what my next move would be.

"Y/n what are doing?" He said quietly getting closers to me slowing.

"No. Stay away from me!" I yelled and pulled the gun out. "I'm sick if your shit rafe. I'm done with it all." I yelled and on the rim of balling my eyes out. "You took everything from me and I thought you loved me." I let a tear slip and I started laughting " I actually thought you loved me , wow how stupid can I really be. I knew you never did , you just use me for your drugs rafe. and I hate you." I sad pulling the gun of the safety trigger and my hard was shaking. He's eyes began to water. Was rafe actually crying? rafe Cameron crying?

" y/n , please. You know I love you , I really do okay and I wii oh of never let anything hurt you. So just give me the gun." He said putting his hands up walking slowly towards me again.

I loved my finger on the trigger.

"I'm sorry rafe." I wisperd.

He launched towards me , nocking the gun from my hands and I was flat in my back on the floor. Rafe was on top of me , I tried reaching for the gun but Rafe had looked at what I was doing at moved it more away. I broke down. He was gonna kill me no. There was no way he would let me get away with that. It all backfired. I couldn't stop crying. I left arms wrapped around me and I tightened my grip around them sobbing into them. My tears trickled down my face and dropped in his shirt.

"Shhhh , it's okay. I love you." He whispers him me ear.

"I'm sorry , I'm so sorry." I said ever so quietly.

After I stopped crying Rafe wiped my face and looking at me dead in the eye.

"Why did you go to do it?" He said lifting up my chin to look at him more.

" I don't know. I thought you didn't love me.." I say more quietly.

"But I do love you and you could ask anyone and they would tell you how much I love you and how crazy I am about you y/n. And I'm sorry , I'm so sorry y/n." He said softly decreeing my eyes.

I kissed him salty lips from his tears.

"I love you so much , rafe." I said after pulling away.

"I love you to." He says rubbing my cheek with him thumb.

What just happened? How am I not dead? was rafe actually inlove with me? It was he lying and stopping me from killing him?