THIS CHAPTER WILL CONTAIN SELF-HARM, SUECIDE AND STARVATION!!
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Walking into the kitchen every day seeing the knife's just lay there, how could she not just take one who would ever notice a knife gone missing and who would ever suspect the "happy girl"of taking it. Tell me would you look at the girl who always had the perfect smile,laugh and looks just to think that she had a small jet sharp knife in a nice box under her bed. That she would bring up the cold metal piece to her sensitive skin and cüt!ng it every time her parents would shout at her or when she had gotten a bad grade on the exam she was so sure she had done great on.
Did you even know that she has been starving herself for a month or two, if she was honest she had lost the count of how many days it had been. How she would cry herself to sleep every night just to be awakened by the sound of the alarm going off every single morning and how her parents would say sorry once in a while only to shout at her the following night. She never understood how her friends always said that they LOVED her parents and wished they were theirs, the feeling that she got in her stomach as fast as she heard that was horrible.
People never understood the struggle she felt every time she saw a knife on the diner table or a rope hanging from some old swing, not even how she felt when she was high above the ground even though that used to be her favorite place to be at. The voices she had tried to get rid of all her life that just told her to just do it no one would ever notice that a brat like har had died. No one understood how loud the voices screamed in her mind, how they constantly said "JUST END IT" "LOOK AT THE KNIFE WHY NOT JUST CÜT YOURSELF NOW" "I KNOW YOU WANT TO JUMP SO DO IT!!" "BRAT" "HOW COULD ANYONE EVER LOVE SOMETHING AS PATHETIC AS YOU".
Even though music was her only escape from the world she lived in she could always dream of another one where she was happy or where her parents cared for her. She ended up writing 10 different letters one to everyone she ever cared about, one for her parents, three for her siblings and two for her grandparent and the last four for the only people that sometimes understood that she was in pain her bsf. She had dropped the lefers in her friend's school bag as they weren't focusing on her . And the rest of them on her desk in her bedroom with a certain name on so everyone knew which one was to who.
She walked to her favorite place which was a large building above the ground. She would normally sit close to the edge and listen to her favorite songs as she was looking at the beautiful city beneath her dangling legs. And so she walked over to the edge as she had done many nights before , took out her phone and headphones and put on her favorite song. With the headphones in her ears and phone in her hand she jumped, her brown beautiful hair fluttered in the wind and her brown dule eyes gleamed in the moonlight. As she hit the hard concrete beneath her everything went black and she finally after 16 years on this cruel planet had a peaceful moment as she fell through the air. The darkness that surrounded her was her final escape.
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My sad shit :)
RandomJust sad short stories I write when I'm bored ig. This book contains self harm, suecide and eating disorders and other stuff. SO DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES READ THIS BOOK IF THIS KIND OF STUFF TRIGGERS YOU!! I will ofc put warnings on each cha...
