It started the day I realized my life was slowly falling apart. the day i realized i needed someone, something, to give me the relief i needed. i knew i couldn't fall for, for someone like calum. he was just there to fuck with. i called him when i needed him, no feelings attached. and next thing i knew, i was risking my life for that idiot.
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My heart was pumping, almost to the point of beating out of my chest. I hadn't talked to Calum in over three months, and it was taking a toll on me. It wasn't supposed to though, and I knew it but I couldn't help it. I loved Philipp, right? I shook my head. Of course I do, or else we wouldn't be dating. Right?
My head started to hurt, and all I wanted to do was see Calum. But after Philipp discovered how much we were talking, he basically banned me from talking to Calum. But here I was,at his doorstep,my hands trembling.I knocked softly four times, and I heard heavy footsteps near the door. My breathing increased,and the anxiety pumped in me even more. The door opened to reveal a very disheveled Calum in a tank top and joggers. Before he could say anything, I embraced him in a tight hug. I buried myself into him, absorbing his musky scent; a mix of axe and beer.
"Calum, I'm so so-" I started.
" Why do you let him control you?"
"W-what?" I stuttered.
He pulled me into the house and shut the door roughly. "You fucking heard me. I kept up my end of this deal, then all the sudden you let this twat make your decisions for you" he said, his voice starting to raise.
"Don't call my boyfriend a twat, okay? I didn't come here to argue okay? I want things to go back the way they were" I said with a steadier voice, my confidence coming back.
He let out a raspy laugh. "Look, that prat has some shady stuff he's doing, and I don't want to be a part of that. I really fucking missed you Danielle, and whenever I tried to talk to you, you'd fucking run off to that prick. So I'm done." he shrugged, turning his back to me.
I felt my heart shatter into millions of microscopic pieces."Cal, " I said, turning him towards me."I know we mean a lot to each other. And I know it was stupid for me to do what I did. Can you at least just not... block me out?" I said softly.
He let out a long sigh and made eye contact with me. "Give me space. I'll think about it, alright?" he said , motioning me to the door.
"Wait, Calum" I said right before I left. "What did you mean when you said Philipp does some 'shady stuff?" I questioned.
Calum looked lost, and broke the eye contact with me. "Oh, um, I was joking?" he said, almost like a question. I gave him a quick suspicious look, but he quickly pushed me out of the door. I felt a buzzing in my phone, seeing a text from Philipp. I smiled, but once I saw the text, it was quickly replaced with confusion and fear.
from:phil <3
we need to talk. now.
