From Jeylin to Jin - Trilogy Jin ( First Tome )

Prologue

I woke up earlier today. My dad and my siblings were sleeping. I went out to walk.

I look around: everyone around me seems to be doing well. A mother and her daughter are laughing and eating waffles. A boy and his dog are playing with a Frisbee. An old woman is singing and cleaning the sidewalk. They are happy. At least, they look happy.

I am not sad. I stopped feeling sad after my mom's death. Now, I know that life means nothing. We are here to work and to build a home. And after that: we are going to die. Everyone is going to die. You're gonna die. I am gonna die. The USA president is gonna die. Jeff Bezos is gonna die. The woman who is cleaning the sidewalk is gonna die. Some would say that I am too pessimistic. No, I am not. I am just realist. I just look at the reality in the face, when everyone prefers to ignore it. You can do whatever you want: you are going to die.

I walked. I don't have a specific destination, but I want to walk. I know that my dad is gonna wake up soon, but I don't care. He is gonna hit me, like he did yesterday. And as he will do tomorrow.

I watched everyone on my walk. They probably have their own problems. They are probably thinking that I am lucky, as I think they are lucky.

They are probably thinking that I am happy, lucky, energetic, privileged.

I don't think that real privileges exist. Socially, yes they do. There is a lot of discriminations.

But sincerely, everyone has their own problems. We can't compare it. I have an abusive dad, and my mom is dead. But on Earth, there is some people who had lost their parents, AND have cancer. Does that mean that I am privileged ? I don't think so.

I looked around me again and saw a teenager with his mom. They are probably fighting all the time. He probably thinks that he deserves better that this "shitty mom". I will give anything just to fight with my mom another time.

My eyes started being wet... Oh god! I don't want to cry. I hadn't cry for 18 months... I stopped my tears. I know how to control my emotions. It's my biggest quality and my worse default.