Been causing a lot of problems lately, have bad grades and being problematic all the time.
My parents are worried about me, yesterday I couldn't wait until night and started crying so bad.
They told me if I want to go to a mental health hospital just as my cousin, i'm really scared I don't wanna go there but at the same time I know I need it.
I don't even know why I'm still here, I don't have any goals to accomplish or even have felt happy in the past year.
It's weird because I feel really happy for a couple months but then I suddenly come back to feel this way.
I feel really bad and I hate the fact that my mom can't sleep because of me, thinking what else she can she do so I can be happy again.
Yesterday my dad asked why I wanted to die, I can't explain how I feel, it's just an empty feeling, an empty space in my body and I can't fill it with anything.
I don't know what to do, I want to be happy. Why can't I be happy again? Why? It's been so long since I felt happiness.
I want to live, i really want to live but not like this.
I almost lost this account, i'm so sorry for not replying DMs.
Thank you for your kind comments i love you guys so much. ♡
