Lexi's POV
It has been four weeks since Austin and I started dating. We don't really tall since we know everything about each other. We just make out a lot. We tried sex but it didn't turn out so well. It hurt, so I made him stop. It was my first. I just don't think there will be anymore until I'm married. Which I hope is a long time from now.
I don't want to get married. Marriage takes a lot of freedom from you. You have to move in with him and have kids. And be mature. I'm not ready for those things yet. I still like to party.
Right now I am cleaning the house. Its clean. Just not spotless like I like it. Austin spent the night with me. I think he is still sleep. He is weird. He sleeps naked. I don't know why. He is just nasty. He needs to wake up so I can clean my sheets. I am not sleeping in that bed again with those. Plus I wash my sheets every time I wash my clothes. Once a week. Then I put them in the closet and get a new pair.
Austin is woke when I walk in the room. He was putting his clothes on.
"We should go out and do something." I said.
"No. I have to work in a few hours."
"I do too. We can do something right now though."
"Why?"
"Cause I want to. We should."
"Let's go to breakfast."
"Its twelve. Don't you mean lunch?"
"We can go to IHOP and eat brunch."
"OK."
"Alexis. You know I love you right?"
"Don't call me that and we just started dating."
"There is a such thing as love at first sight."
"I don't believe in that anymore."
It was true. I used to fall in love so fast. The harder I fell in love the more I was hurt. I don't really believe in love.
"Well I do," he said.
"You only break hearts. You're a boy. That's all you do is break hearts."
"Some boys are different."
"Tell me when you find one."
"What about me? I'm not different?"
"I barely know you."
"That doesn't mean I'm not different."
"I didn't say it did."
"So I am different?"
"I don't know. Maybe."
"Ok."
Why was he so mad? He wasn't like them. They were nice and adorable at first. Then they changed. I don't know why. I also don't know if I give him my heart will he do the same.
"Austin. I'm just scared."
"Of?"
"I don't know."
"Just tell me."
"Its not important."
"I'll listen. It is important."
"No its not."
"It is."
"I don't trust you. I don't trust anyone."
"Why not?"
"I don't know how to. I've been hurt physically and mentally when I do nothing but trust people. I don't know why but it always happen. So I don't trust you. I'm sorry."
"Its fine. I can gain it. Right?"
"Sure."
"Good."
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Austin's POV
Lexi just made me think about why I chose her. Why would she not trust me. I trust her. We are dating. Haven't she heard that if you don't have trust you don't have anything. Should I be in a relationship with a girl who can't even trust me? I trust her. She should be able to trust me. I don't even want to go on a date with this girl or do anything else. I need to try to gain her trust then break this lady thing's heart. I'm trying to do it when the time is right but at this rate I might do it now.
"Alexis."
"I have asked you not to call me that."
"It's your name. Why can't you just get over the fact that it is your name?"
"I don't care. I have asked you not to call me that. Can you just respect that?"
"No. I want to call you by your full first name."
She walked to her room. I'm pretty sure I heard the door lock. I walk to the door and open it. No she didn't lock it. She was doing the only thing that didn't annoy me. She was reading. I sat on the bed and looked at her. She looked back at me then continued to read. I walked to her and picked her up.
"Put me down."
"Why would I do that?"
I sat in the chair with her on my lap. I have never picked her up before. She is very light. And warm.
"This is fun. Really fun. I don't know why but I like it. Do you like it Alexis?"
She got off my lap and walked out the room. I followed her. I like to annoy her. Its fun. I don't know why.
"Alexis. Stop walking when I'm talking to you. Alexis! You are really going to annoy me. Alexis!!"
"Leave me alone."
"I am trying to talk to you. Don't walk away when I am talking. That is disrespectful. I let you talk. So let me talk."
"Can you leave? Just get out my house. Please."
"I just want to talk to you Alexis."
"No. I don't want to talk. I want you to leave."
"I'm just playing. Why do you take everything so serious?"
"Because that is the type of person I am. Why do you act so childish?"
"How am I acting childish?"
"You are calling me that just to annoy me. That is childish and ignorant."
"Well I act 'childish' because it is fun. Any other questions?"
"Yes! Can you leave? I don't want you here right now. Just don't come back for a few years or ever."
"Are you breaking up with me?"
"Yes. I am breaking up with you."
"Ok. Then I will leave."
"Please."
I left. How could she break up with me over something so stupid. I need to get her back. I think I have feelings for her. She is really mad though. I'll just come back tonight.
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When I got to Alexi's house that night she was with someone. I still had my key so I went in. She just looked at me like she was waiting for me.
"What? Am I late?"I was teasing her.
"Yes. I thought you would come back in to talk about it."
"Lucky you."
I sat beside her and she laid her head on my chest.
"I missed you. So I came back. I won't call you that if you don't want me to. I'm sorry. I know how you feel about that. But I didn't mean to hurt you I was just playing."
"Its fine. I'm sorry to. I just don't like to be called that."
"You never told me why you don't like that name. Why don't you like to be called that?"
"My parents named me. I didn't want the name period. But it was my name. And I like the name. So why would I change it. But they used to call me that. It just reminds me of the things they did. To me."
"Oh. Ok. Well I'm sorry. It won't happen again. I promise."
"Thank you."
