Marvel One Shots

The Blip

Natasha x Reader

TW: Self-Harm
It's been a week since the blip happened. Half of the population disappeared. I know it already sounds worse but I couldn't imagine that this could be worst. Natasha was one of the people who blipped.

Fucking hell.

They're still trying to figure out if there's a way to bring everyone back. I want to help so badly but I can't even get out of my room. I have been struggling every day when Natasha disappeared. The love of my life just... Disappeared at a snap of a finger. How do you think am I supposed to feel and react to that?

A knock on the door snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Y/N, you need to eat. Please... Natasha won't be happy if she knew how you treat yourself."

Okay, point taken. I haven't eaten since... Yesterday. I haven't taken a bath, just cried and space out, and I look like shit.

"I'm good, Wands. Thanks." I faced her briefly and continued to look outside my room to space out.

I can't imagine my life without Nat. I can't imagine loving any other person like that. I haven't even gotten the chance to say that I love her before she blipped. I fucked up.

"Y/N..."

Wanda, now beside me, pulled me into a hug. She's been reading my mind.

I let myself cry my heart out and hugged Wanda tighter. She and Yelena are the ones who always check up on me.

"None of this is your fault. It's not too late. We'll figure things out and get everyone back. You'll see Natasha again, okay?"





Third Person's POV

"None of this is your fault. It's not too late. We'll figure things out and get everyone back. You'll see Natasha again, okay?" Wanda hugged Y/N closer and made her fall asleep.

She gently scooped the woman in her arms and laid her on the bed.

"You'll be okay... We'll be okay." Wanda whispered before she went out.

She headed to the meeting room where everyone is.

"How's Y/N?"

"How is she?"

Everyone asked in sync.

"Still hasn't eaten. I made her fall asleep." Wanda sadly explained. Everyone exchanged glances. For a moment, they were wrapped in silence but Tony decided to break it.

"Oh, shit!" Eyes landed on Tony who's now standing and doing something.

"Scott was right... I know it sounds crazy but we can build a time machine and actually travel back in time. We can get the stones by ourselves and do the snap to bring everyone back."

"I'm in." Rogers stated. Everyone started to agree on the plan when a voice with a thick accent also spoke.

Yelena who's been listening to the whole time outside the room was now on the door, leaning against it.

"Count me in."


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After 5 hours...

It was already night time and Yelena is the one who's in charge to check in on Y/N.

"Y/N?" She knocked a few times but nobody responded.

"Y/N? I'm coming in." She knocked again but when nobody responded, Yelena proceeded to go in.

Yelena roamed around Y/N's room when she saw that she's in the comfort room. She waited for Y/N to come out but after five minutes, boredom and curiosity ate her.






(Back to your POV)

I woke up feeling worst than before. My gaze landed on the food that Wanda had prepared for me earlier. I don't want to eat. I can't.

Instead, I headed to my bathroom. I splashed cold water on my face to calm myself down. I can't do this.

I don't know what had gotten into me but I just found myself holding a blade. Something about it made me feel comforted. Without a second thought, I slit my wrist.

It's so satisfying to watch the line go red.

Pain.

It was what my physical body felt but my heart says otherwise.

Comfort.

Isn't it ironic that we hurt ourselves to comfort our pain? That doesn't make sense. I don't make sense.

I was stopped by what I'm doing when I heard a knock. Damn it.

"Y/N?"

"Y-Yelena?"

"Yeah, it's me. Are you okay? You've been in there for a while now." A trace of worriedness lingered in her voice.

I tried my best to sound normal and to stop myself from crying.

"Y-yeah... I'm fine."

But as the Russian spy she was, I failed to make her believe me.

"Can you open the door, please? Y/N?"

Guilt ate me and I started to cry. I looked at myself in the mirror----blood dripping off my wrist, blood on my shirt, and on the bathroom floor. What a mess.

I broke down on the bathroom floor crying. I can't hear anything. Everything just sounded muffled. My vision is becoming blurry and I could feel myself running out of breath.

A pair of hands grabbed my cheek and I saw a blonde Russian woman looking into my eyes. She was shouting but I couldn't understand. I weakly smiled at her.

"Please, let me go."

It was the last thing that I remembered saying before my vision became dark.






Third Person's POV

"Y/N?" Yelena called outside.

"Y-Yelena?"

"Yeah, it's me. Are you okay? You've been in there for a while now." Yelena asked worriedly, knowing that something is going on.

Y/N tried her best to sound normal and to stop herself from crying.

"Y-yeah... I'm fine."

But Yelena knew something was up so, she asked again.

"Can you open the door, please? Y/N?"

Y/N didn't respond.

"Y/N? Open the door." Yelena said in full authority but the only thing she heard was Y/N's sobs.

"I'll ask you one last time to open this goddamn door or I'll break this!"

Still, no response.

With that, Yelena kicked and broke the door. She was greeted by Y/N breaking down on the bathroom floor, bathing on her own blood.

"Fuck! What did you do to yourself?!" Yelena panicky got a towel and wrapped it on Y/N's wrist.

She grabbed Y/N's cheek and said,

"Stay with me. Don't fucking close your eyes!"

Y/N weakly smiled at her, eyelids becoming heavier.

"Please, let me go." She weakly said before being unconscious.

"Don't you fucking die, Y/N!" Yelena picked her up and rushed outside the room.

"Help, guys! Help!' She shouted as she ran.

Halfway through the clinic, Wanda and the others saw them.

"Oh my god!" Wanda cried and ran towards Y/N.

"To the clinic!"





(Back to Y/N's POV)

A blinding light greeted me as I woke up. Where am----

"Y/N! Thank, god! Are you okay---scratch that. How do you feel? Oh my god, I'm sorry..." Wanda cried and hugged me.

"W-why... Why am I still here?" My voice broke as I finished my question. I failed.

"Yelena found you in your room. Why did you do that to yourself?"

"You know why, Wands." I replied in a monotone voice.

"Is that what you really wanted? For Natasha to know that you tried to take your own life?"

"She won't know! She won't come back!" My voice got louder and I started to cry.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell at you." I apologized quickly. I'm just... On the edge.

My gaze landed on the hand who held mine.

"Y/N..."

"Yelena..." She hugged me tight and looked at me directly after.

Yelena and Wanda looked at each other before facing me again.

"W-what's going on?" I nervously asked.

"You can't die yet, Y/N." Wanda stated which made me scrunch my eyebrows.

"You can't die yet, Y/N." Yelena repeated.

Okay, who are these people to decide whether I'm dying or not----

"We found a way to bring everyone back... To bring Natasha back."

I froze at what Yelena said and confusedly yet happily asked again.

"What?"