RoSEs ARe ROSie

[2] getting ready

HER

i know you may be confused.. my name is Y/N i live in Korea. My life has been nothing but black and white i have no emotions, im dull. Numb even, i dont feel pain anymore i never have for as long as ive known myself ive just been emotionless, i cant feel anything i have no love for anyone i have no friends no family no life im all alone  i have always been. im 17 years old im dreading the day i leave this ophanage to go out on my own, i have no where to go after this, i was too dull no one wanted me , too careless , silent and still . i had only one thing that brought me pleasure in this world, my books. The books that i read reminded me of myself, a small boy quiet and calm who is slowly dying inside. those were the kind of books i read sad and painful because in honest truth , my life is sad and painful.

Mentally,emotionaly and physically abused by the caretakers of this orphanage... ive lost all sense of humanity, im just an empty shell of a human i dont even believe i have rights anymore... not after what ive been through.

a menace they call me, dumb, stupid a whore a slut. what did i do?

is it because of my personality?

if so i dont care it doesnt hurt anymore. say all you want. if thats what makes you happy i guess...

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igh.. another hard day of scrubing the bathroom in the orphanage. its my birthday tomorrow, the day they kick me out of here .... its gonna pain me i just know it
well at least no more belts and harsh words? not that they hurt its just getting kinda old now i guess. i need a vacation im sick of all this bullshit.

i have exams coming up too... can you believe it? after all that? how am i supposed to study when i have to do all the chores here? ugh i hate my life ...

im so glad im not the only person they kick tomorrow, there are 7 more kids getting thrown out.. poor them i dont know any of their names but im gonna get introduced to them anyway. i head to the shower and have a warm bath . its very calming for me, after my bath i have the dinner that was prepaired i realise that it is 9 pm on the clock everyone is in bed by now

CLINK

or maybe not everyone i turn towards the kitchen area.. i see a girl with red hair, climbing through the window?? what is she doing there?

i just stare at her blankly, she smiles at me and does a shush motion she continues to climb in and walks toward me

"hello, my name is Rose" the girl says. i just simply nod and walk towards my room i didnt wanna get involved in anything she was doing because i knew she would get me in trouble. she had a confused look on her face but shrugged it off " yah! dont tell anyone what you saw..." she whispered

i stopped in my tracks and spun around to meet her gaze then said " sure i wont" she smiled and walked past me it made me feel something ... i dont know what it is yet but i want to see her again.. and soon

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