I think when it's all over, it comes back in flashes, when you're least expecting it.
Like a kaleidoscope of memories.
When someone like him comes into your life, they never really leave it.
They stay with you forever. Not the person, but the memories. And the memories are the most painful part.
Now his music career is finally taking off, and my face will probably just blend in with the thousands of other ones he sees daily.
But for me, his will always stick out in a crowd.
He was the first person who I loved.
And we broke each other.
I remember last month, on April 24, we saw each other at the train station.
Our eyes met for a moment, and then quickly drifted away.
My heart broke as my eyes darted away from his. It was like leaving him all over again.
Just like the drugs he introduced me to, we were toxic. We were built to fall apart.
This is the story of when I fell in love with Matthew Timothy Healy.
Sorry to spoil the end, but it doesn't work out quite the way we both wanted it to.
