Okay, i will get things straight here.
°My name is unknown
°Age is 14 and a 1/2
°Colors are red and gold
°Gender, boy and girl
°Person i love, i want to be with him forever. And i know i am REALLY OBSESSED WITH HIM. Like holy shit, I love him so much im crying just because of thinking about him. Tbh, i want to marry him, cause he gave me so much happiness and love that i never ever gotten in my life. Hopefully he wont think of me as an asshole or a bitch.
°Why am i writing this, because i want to get things off my chest
°Do i remember who i am, no, well yes. I know my childhood was good. Yeah i had heart pain but that is actually normal. I had 2 awesome friends, and i think of them as my sisters, and they have a place in my heart forever even though they will forget about me. School was hard for me, i was not smart, buts thats okay. I got bullied at least 2 times, idk why. But my childhood was normal. I remember now.
°Family, my family has problems, mostly on being together. My dad cheated on my mom 2 times. And they are still together. My brother is not really part of the family anymore, he goes to his friends and stays there for about a month and comes back just for money. I saw him today for the first time isln about a month and a half.
°My body, i have heart problems and im in pain most of the time, but not all the time. The pain in my chest hurts but its a pain im used to. I dont complain about it anymore, cause no one really cares. I mean my family only cares about the money and my friends, they do care. Pain is normal for me, as long as its durable i can move on. Im not weak, thanks to Cody and our "mask".
°Friends, i have friends that are so kind to me that i dont know why they deal with my weaboo shit. Im so annoying, and i make everyone embarrassed of me. Idk why i still have them in my reach. I love them and i want to be with them forever, even though 2 want to move out of here and go to Canada and England. One says she doesn't want to keep contact on us and im like," bitch do you have any idea how much i care for you. Even though you say you want to move and not keep contact of us, i will personally hunt you down and love you when we is done with high school. Don't you ever think of letting us go and go far, im okay with you going and living your life and exploring new places, but dont let me lose you. I lost all my friends, i have no one, yeah i have other ones, but NONE OF THEM ARE AS AWESOME AS YOU. Do you fucking understand me?"
God damn that was long. Hopefully she gets the message.
°What do i want to do in the future, i wnat to write books. I like fiction, i like how our minds will visualize stuff as we read something we have no idea about. Like it is such a beautiful thing. Writing is thing that calms me. Like right now, im being calm, o dear gods.
°Religion, im a polythiest, believe in all gods. Very conscious about spirits and demons. DONT EVER MESS WITH THE SPIRITS.
Returning to my shit-
The reason im doing this is because im gonna be true to myself. I want the mask to come off. My friend says she can't help me, and so...I don't know what to do. I just need help.
