destiel guardian Angel

an angel falls for a human

Cas pov
 
I lived a normal life working at a coffee place with my family. I felt like I was getting watched. It creped me out. I never saw his face. I reported it to the police it didn’t seem like they cared. My big brother went with me everyday. They started to not believe me. I was working now. I did my usual work. I went out to get home. I asked my brother to go with me but he said I was overreacting. I walked alone. I started to walk fast think I was getting followed. This time I saw the guy. When I turned around. My eyes meat his. He had green forest eyes with dark blond hair. He had a hoodie on. To be a stalker he was so beautiful. I started to go fast. He stopped going after me when I saw him but I didn’t know that. I kept going. A guy suddenly went in front of me. I was terrified. He pushed me to the ground. He beat me up. He hit my head over and over.
“Hey get off him!” a guy said. The guy stopped punching me and got up looking at the other guy.
“get away from him.” He said demanding. His eyes glowing but I didn’t see that. I was bloody. I was to scared to move. The guy who hurt me went to beat the other guy up. The guy who wanted to save me beat the guy up.
“I told you to leave him alone.” He whispered in to his ears and after punched him unconscious. The guy came to me.
“Hey are you awake?” He asked helping me sit up. I was bleeding from the back of my head. I opened my eyes but I couldn’t see anything it scared the crap out of me. I started to breath fast.
“Hey what’s wrong why are you panicking?” He asked worried.
“i-i c-ca-an-nt s-se-e" I said starting to cry. He looked at me sad and worried. He took me up and carried me to the hospital. He stayed in the hospital to I could get visits. He sat down beside my bed. I had bandages around my eyes. I had bandages around my head too. I started to wake up. I jumped scared of where I was.
“Hey hey its okay you are in the hospital. I am still here the guy who saved you" he said softly putting his hand on mine. I calmed a little knowing he cared.
“w-what d-did the doctor s-say?” I asked worried. He sighed sad.
“they said you will probably be blind for the rest of your life. I am really sorry I should have came before” he said feeling guilty for how bad it went.
“it isn’t your fault” I said trying not to cry. It was silent for some. Suddenly I felt him hug me.
“Thank you" I said softly hugging him back. He helped me get my family to come. I found out his name was Dean. I was long in the hospital. My family needed to work. Dean stayed with me. He made me smile and laugh at his funny jokes. He was so sweet to me.
I hadn’t had a boy be so nice and kind to me before. And he was there in such a hard time. When I got out of the hospital he helped me gradually get my self together. I needed training to understand how to live as blind. He stayed with me the whole time. It meant so much. I knew I liked him and he was showing he liked me to. He kissed my nose and cheek plenty of times. It was what he did to make me feel better. It worked.
I had taken off the badges. I couldn’t see. Dean said my eyes looked beautiful. Dean helped me work at the restaurant. I am a waiter. I could do it after some tries. People were really kind and give me time if something wasn’t working.
Dean didn’t hide how much he cared about me. My family where really happy I found a boy who liked me for who I was anyways of that I couldn’t see. Dean took me with him. I didn’t know where we were going. He helped my hand softly. We went in to a place. It had music. I think it was a party. Dean took me out on the floor. He took my hand up and started to dance with me. I smiled softly.
“thought you would want this" Dean said softly taking his arm under my back and leaning me down and up again turning me around some. He was careful to not make me trip. When I came back. We were really close. I could feel his breathing.
“c-can..can I kiss you?” Dean asked softly. I smiled softly of him actually asking me.
“of course babe" I said softly. Dean smiled and leaned forward and leaned me down kissing me softly. He took me back up. I kissed back softly. It went to passionately. I let his tongue in. Dean was enjoying it. I was too. Dean went away biting my lip before letting totally go. I moaned low. Dean smiled laughing a little.
“I love you..shit sorry" Dean said taking his hand over his mouth as he released what just came out. He was worried and scared of what I would say. It just went out of him. He thought it and accidently said it out load.
“y-you l-love m-me?” I asked shocked. That someone could love me. I hoped he did but I didn’t wanna ask.
“y-yea-ah s-sor-ry i-it j-ju-ust c-cam-me o-ou-ut" Dean said panic in his voice.
“Dean why are you panicking?” I asked caring taking my hand on his cheek softly.
“I.. I don’t w-wanna f-force y-you" Dean said sounding about to cry.
“babe hey look up at me. I love you too. You shouldn’t be scared of telling me that" I said softly taking him in to a hug. Dean hugged me back burying his head in my shoulder.
“I love you a lot" Dean said my hug calming and comfort him.
“I do too. I was shocked when you said you love me. I know I can’t be what you des-" I started to say. He jumped away from me. He put his hand on my mouth not letting me keep going.
“don’t fucking say that" Dean said upset.
“you fucking deserve me you deserve better then me don’t say that never say that" Dean said taking the hand away from my mouth.
“I love you Dean" I said softly taking my hand on his arm to know where he was. I went closer to him and took my hand on his cheek and took him in to a kiss. He kissed back. When I stopped he said
“I love you too" softly. He took my hand and we went back. I was so happy with him. We went home and he helped me take a shower. I could do it on my own but I liked him helping me. I said I couldn’t do it my self so he would do it for me. He knew I could do it my self. But he saw how much I loved and felt safe showering with him instead of alone. He didn’t say anything. When we were done we laid down in bed. We cuddled and fell asleep together.
 
Next day
 
Dean woke me up. He had made break fast. He went with me after to work. He held my hand it was to make sure I knew he was there. I worked Dean had gotten a job in the restaurant as a chef. I loved tasting his good food. He is really talented. I am deeply in love with him.
 
Deans pov
 
I love Cas. I always wanted to be with him. But I held back. But now as he doesn’t know me and I could start again. I did and we fell for each other. I have always watched over him held him safe. I felt like it was my fault and it was. I had fallen and heaven and the angels didn’t want me. They hated me. I just wanted to be happy and loved. Cas gave me that. The angles had ripped and cut of my wings. I had a huge scar on my back. I had bandages on it for a while but now it was just scar. It was from me falling for Cas. I hadt told him. I hid it from him. When we were in the shower I just made sure he didn’t feel it. I had tried to heal him but it didn’t work. I loved every moment I had with him. It was a sin to start caring for the one you are a guardian angel over that’s why I fell I couldn’t stop my self anymore.
 
Cas pov
 
I started to notice I was seeing a little better. I told Dean and we went to the hospital to get it checked out. I was happy about it because maybe I could see Dean. I went home smiling. I thought Dean was happy too. But he was sad and scared I would leave him. When we came home he left me in my room. I tried to sleep. Dean went to the bathroom and broke down crying. He didn’t think I would love him after seeing who he was. And founding out more about him. He was shaking. I heard Dean crying. It broke my heart. I got up and eventually came to the door. I opened it and he stopped crying.
“Dean" I said sad and worried. I went up to him and took his head up. I kissed his forehead and took him in to a soft hug.
“I will always love you. I know I will love how you look” I said kissing the top of his head many times to make him feel loved.
“I don’t think you will like it" Dean said starting to cry again.
“I will I know I will. My love for you won’t just disappear” I said rubbing his back softly. He kept crying.
“shhh I will never leave you" I said softly. After he had stopped I helped him back to our room. Dean fell asleep with his head on my chest and my arms around him. I loved him so much nothing could change that. I fell asleep soon after
 
Some days later
 
Cas pov
 
I started to wake up. I fell asleep with Dean beside me. My sight had been getting better I was close to where I could see him. I opened my eyes. I didn’t feel or see him close to me.
“Dean?” I asked confused. I sat up and went out trying to find him. I didn’t. I tried for long to I gave up. I went to work and he wasn’t there either. Gabriel called Dean but he didn’t answer. I was so confused and hurt. I tried to get contact with him for days. He didn’t answer.
5 days later I got called. I answered it was from a hospital. They said Dean was there. He had passed out. I went and the doctor told me he had low blood level and it seemed to be because of a panic attack. She said he had a feeding tube because he haven’t eaten in long. He had his back to me. I could see better. I could see him when I was 3 meters away.
I went on the side I could see his face. I froze when I saw him was the stalker who were flowing me that made me feel scared. Dean looked at me seeing I saw it was him. He turned around taking his back to me. I took it as him not wanting to see me it hurt I started to think he didn’t want me. That he just played with me and now as I could see he couldn’t play with me anymore. I went to go out. I stopped and turned around. Something still in me wanting him to actually care about me.
“Why did you do this to me?” I asked hurt. He looked at me with a weak look and his eyes went up how they do when you are about to pass out. It worried me and I saw his blood level was low and breathing was low and his heart rate was low.
“omg Dean Dean” I said going fast to him.
“h-hey look at me don’t leave me. Why wouldn’t you tell me you really loved me instead of turning your back to me" I said taking my hand under his cheek. He was shaking breathing barely. He couldn’t breath. I rubbed my thumb softly on his cheek. I kissed his forehead. I took the breathing mask that was beside the bed from when he needed it before. I put it on him. I kissed his forehead again.
“I love so so much this doesn’t change it if you love me. You saved me instead of letting him kill me. You stayed with me when I needed someone. And you gave me love that I never had before. I love you so fucking much" I said softly and caring. Some tears went down Deans face. He closed his eyes and calmed down Slowly.
“I love you too" Dean said low and weak.
“Shh just rest babe" I said softly kissing his forehead again. I wiped some of his tears. Dean listened and fell asleep feeling safe and loved. I stayed awake for an hour just in case and after that I fell asleep with my head on his and my hand on his. Dean was sleeping peacefully. I fell asleep too.
 
Next day
 
I was awake. Dean was still sleeping. The doctors said he was getting better. When he got good enough to leave I helped him sit up. I went and got his clothes to help him put them on. Dean said he could do it him self. I said I could do it but he insisted. I kinda got the vibe he didn’t want me to do it. He changed and we went out. I held his hand. We went home to my apartment or ours. I walked with him in. He was really quiet. It worried me. Normally he comes with fun jokes and make me smile. But it seems like I need to be that now. I can see he is not okay.
“do you wanna go in a shower?” I asked softly.
“y-yeah" Dean said going to the bathroom.
“can I shower with you?” I asked a little nervous.
“n-no I wanna be alone" Dean said like he was nervous for what I would say when I would see him.
“You have seen me naked why can’t I see you?” I asked confused tilting my head.
“I.. I just don’t feel comfortable..” Dean said looking down. He didn’t look at me. I went towards him.
“Dean I know you are beautiful. How can someone so beautiful think yourself is ugly. You are not ugly Dean" I said taking his hand going in with him. I started the shower and went in. I had taken off my clothes. I smiled softly to Dean when he came in.
“You are so beautiful Dean" I said looking up at his beautiful forest eyes.
“You have such beautiful eyes" I said softly. Taking my hand on his neck up his head leaning his head down so I could kiss him. I kissed him softly. When I let go I turned and got some soup.
“here" I said softly. Dean washed me with soap. I didn’t get why he thought he was ugly. I could just think why did he like me because I am not up to his standards. When he had cleaned me I started to take soap on him. I smiled softly at him but he didn’t smile back just looked sad. It broke my heart. I felt bad I couldn’t help him. I kept rubbing him in with soap.
“can you turn around?” I asked softly.
“I c-can d-do I-it m-my s-self" Dean said taking the shampoo. I gave him a confused judge look. For why the hell he wouldn’t want me to do his back. Maybe he doesn’t want me. He is so off when I am around him now.
“Do you still want me? You can just tell me. I don’t wanna think you do and found out later” I said upset.
“n-no I w-want y-you" Dean said.
“then why won’t you let me soap your back?” I asked upset. Dean looked down. I got enough and turned him. Dean tried to turn around so I wouldn’t see. He panicked scared.
“omg" I said seeing the huge scars on his back. Dean moved taking his back to the wall. He was breathing fast fully in panic. I looked up at him with horror and worriedness. It was so big. How could he hide that from me..
“i-i a-am s-sor-ry" Dean said about to cry. I didn’t get to react before he was out of the shower. When he went to take a towel. I saw his back again. I walked towards him. I put my hand went to touch it. Dean flinched and jumped when I touched it. He turned frighten.
“omg did someone do that to you?” I asked seeing how scared he was. I went towards him. Dean tensed scared. Still tears in his eyes. I went in to him hugging him carefully.
 
“I am so sorry Dean I shouldn’t have touched it. What ever happened to you. You didn’t deserve. I love you so so much. I would never hurt or leave you because of a scar” I said softly and caring.
“But you need to eventually tell someone about it for you own good. You don’t need to tell me if you don’t want to but someone. I can see it still hurts you. You need to try and make it better for yourself. I won’t touch it to you are okay with it. I love you I hope you get that" I said softly and caring. Dean hugged me back.
“I-i l-lo-ove y-you t-too" Dean said trying not to brake down.
“come with me back to the shower so I can get off the soap. After we were done we ate some good food and watch some movies. Its gonna get better" I said softly and let go and took his hand taking him with me. I cleaned the soap off and kissed him softly before going out of the shower. I helped him out and took clothes on him. He let me. And it made me happy that he was okay with it now as I knew and still loved him. But it still hurt me that he hid that. I made some food after and we ate. We watched some movies. Dean had his head in my neck. I had my arms around him. I had my head on his. Dean fell asleep first. He slept peacefully. I went to sleep after
 
Next day
 
Me and Dean was walking home from work. We were holding hands. We went to an alley to get to my apartment. I felt safe when walking with Dean. I know he would always ptry and protect me. But I always hated it before. It was scary. And anyone could attack and get away with it. Dean suddenly tight his grip in my hand. I looked at him worried. He seemed to have a head pain. He closed his eyes in pain.
“Dean?” I asked worried.
“I.. “ Dean said falling forward. His knees giving up. His eyes going up. I went in front of him taking him.
“Dean? Dean??” I said panicking really worried. He was dead weight.
“hi" a person said. I turned fast scared at the person.
“We are not hurting you. Dean is getting checked on. Are you a Christian?” she asked going towards me. I was still scared. I nodded scared. Still holding Dean.
“I am angel. Dean is a fallen he betrayed heaven. I will tell you more" she said. I was in shock. She took me and someone else took Dean. They took me to a different room to talk to me. They tied Dean hands to the roof his head was down with blind fold. They took off all of his clothes but his boxers.
They told me Dean betrayed heaven and he is a evil being. They let me have some time to reflect. I still loved Dean. I couldn’t just ignore how nice he was to me. They said he had been in that body since he was born. So it was him the whole time.
They told me after I got to reflect the first time. That Dean was using me and he was following me because of his desire to use me and seduce me. What I didn’t get with that was that he hadn’t had sex with me. They said he probably was waiting for it. It didn’t really all add up. They said Dean planned the attack when I got blind it was all his plan and he went away when you would see again. After some hours they took me to Dean.
The lady went over to Dean. I didn’t want anyone to hurt Dean but I couldn’t do anything. Dean chest was rising and closing it made me feel better that he was alive. “see here” she said taking her hand on his chest. Dean flinched and it seemed like she broke a spell. Scars started to gradually appear all over his body. It broke my heart. “people have tried to kill him. But he is a strong being. We were the only one that actually broke him. Come here" she said and took my arm and took me to the back.
“this is where his wings where before. We cut it off” she said taking her hand on the scars. Dean flinched scared. I couldn’t see him in pain anymore so before she started to hurt him I took her hand off him and went in the way.
“What are you doing?” she asked confused.
“I don’t want you to hurt him" I said sad and scared what they would do with me and Dean. Dean head moved hearing me.
“he is evil" she said.
“I don’t believe you" I said.
“he can’t be that. He loves me and I wont believe you.” I said standing up for Dean. Dean felt relived I still loved him.
“how can you love him??” she asked taking her blade out. I was scared. I turned and looked up at Deans hands. They were tied with metal I couldn’t cut them free.
“Yeah you won’t get him free. I guess we need to kill you know" she said with smirk. It was creepy. She took the blade and tried to cut my throat taking the knife fast across. I went away and came to Deans back. She smiled and went to stab me. I closed my eyes scared seeing I couldn’t do anything.
The light smashed and it became black. I saw some light and someone fell to the ground. I was okay. An angel flashed some light. I was scared. I hugged Dean from his back. It broke Deans heart that I was scared. Suddenly it all stopped. Some light came on. It was a guy there in front of Dean. He went towards Dean. I was worried and thought he was evil so I went to attack him. I took a blade and went towards him scared. He stopped it with his hand. Holding my arm up. He went and put his hand on my forehead. Some tears went down my face scared that was the end for me. I was frozen in place. He took the hand off my forehead. He went to Dean. I was still in shock that I was still alive. The guy got Dean free. Dean fell on him.
“You are just gonna stand there?” the guy asked harsh to me.
“S-Sam?” Dean said hearing the voice.
“Yeah are you okay?” Sam asked worried.
“y-yeah I-I t-think s-so" Dean said. Dean took the blind fold off and looked for me ending up on me. I looked down feeling like I betrayed him for not helping him before. He smiled softly and got up and went to me. Dean put his hand on my cheek taking my face up. He looked in to my eyes.
“Thank you for believing me" Dean said softly.
“y-you are so beautiful with that scar across your face" I said just not able to hide it when I saw it fully. Dean cheeks went red.
“t-thank you" Dean said blushing.
“Thank you Cas I love you too” Dean said softly hugging me. After I took off my coat and took it around Deans hip so people couldn’t see his dick. Dean smiled softly of my caring.
“Thank you for believing I was innocent” Dean said still really touched by me caring.
“It didn’t add up because you have been so nice and kind to me. And what they said didn’t sound like you at all. And they said you just wanted to seduce me but you haven’t had sex with me and you asked to kiss me” I said.
“I fell because I fell for you" Dean said honest.
“what.. no Dean.. you fell because you got feelings for me?” I asked hurt by why he fell. It broke my heart.
“Yeah I liked you before you knew me. I followed you because I was told to keep you safe and I eventually got feelings for you. It got so much bigger when I meet you face to face. You loved me. It meant a lot. I never thought someone could love me like that” Dean said not looking away from my eyes.
“I felt so bad for you when you got hurt and I heard you couldn’t see that I just couldn’t leave I didn’t want you to be alone and scared” Dean said honest.
“I love you so fucking much" I said tears in my eyes from what he had said. I took him in to a kiss. Dean smiled softly in it.
“ahh warn me” Sam said blocking his eyes with his hand. Dean laughed and kissed my forehead and we walked home. I got ready for bed. Dean was already in bed.
“Dean?” I said when I sat on the bed. Dean turned and smiled softly to me.
“Yeah babe?” He asked softly.
“can I see you back again?” I asked softly. Dean smiled disappeared but he sat up taking his shirt off. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He was ready for me to touch it or something. I sat down close to him.
“the angles did this to you?” I asked looking at the big wounds. It was two big scars where his wings where before.
“Yeah” Dean said looking down at his hands. I put my hand softly on his back close to the wound. I leaned forward and kissed his scar. Dean moved away a little but calmed down. I kept kissing him softly on the scars. I did it many times. Deans cheeks were red. When I was done I took my arms around him neck down his front body. My head on the right side of his head.
“I love you Dean” I said softly.
“I love you too Cas" Dean said turning around kissing me softly. I smiled softly.
 
*NSFW warning*
 
He went over me. He started to kiss me hard. He took his hand under my shirt and up to my chest. He took my shirt up and over my head stopping to kiss me for some few seconds. He took off his own off. He kept kissing me. His body moved so beautifully. He let go and started to suck my neck. I moaned. I was kinda thinking about what the angels said now as he went to have sex with me. He stopped and took off his pants and took off mine. He didn’t hold back. He took me under and up from the bed caring me. He took me against the wall.
“I know how to make you feel the best. I am best with the wall. You are gonna love this“ Dean said softly. He started to thrust in to me. Taking his hip against mine. I moaned feeling him thrust against my dick. Dean took down my boxers. He took down his.
“You okay with this?” Dean asked softly. I looked at him. He had a caring look.
I liked it so “Yeah I love you" I said softly. Dean smiled. He took down his and took my legs up. I knew what he was gonna do and I was looking forward to it. Dean made my but whole big enough with his powers I moaned. And my head went back. It didn’t hurt because he used his powers. He took his dick in me. I moaned of the feel.
“You ready babe?” Dean asked softly.
“y-yeah" I said softly. Dean pushed him self in to me. I moaned my head going back and eyes closing in pleasure. Dean kept going hard. I moaned in every push. I loved it. Dean smiled softly and kept going. When he got so long that he was close. He went long out. I thought he was gonna stop it made me sad because it felt so close and so good. He pushed fast in making my head go fast back.
“ahhh" I said moaning load. I cumed. Dean put his hand on my dick taking some of it. I looked at him after he took some of it in to his mouth.
“eww" I said blushing looking away. Dean laughed.
“I think it’s tasted good" Dean said softly.
“eww ahh don’t say that ew ew" I said shaking my head not wanting to remember. Dean pushed in again. I moaned again. He closed his eyes cuming in me. I looked at him while he did it. I gave him a confused look.
“how did that make you cume?” I asked confused. Dean smiled of my cute confused look.
“because I feel myself in you and that makes me cume" Dean said softly. Taking me up and down on the bed separating us. His dick going out of me. I moaned when it went out. Dean smiled and cleaned me and him up.
“It’s also that you moaned so much” Dean said laughing teasing me a little. My cheeks went red. We went to bed after that.
“I love you” Dean said softly.
“I love you too" I said softly. Dean fell asleep after I did too
 
*NSFW over*
 
2 weeks later
 
Deans pov
 
I was out working. Cas felt sick so he stayed home. I went home later it was a long day. I looked for Cas. I eventually found him passed out by the toilet. It broke my heart. I took him with me to the sofa. I got a worm towel and put it on his forehead. I took care of Cas while he slept. Cas woke up some hours later. He barely had any energy. It worried me. I tried to get him to get better through the next week. It didn’t work and he seemed to get worse. I was so worried. I can’t lose him. I took him to the hospital.
They checked him. Cas was to weak to comfort me. I was holding his hands. I was shaking worried. Cas had fallen asleep. The doctor came and took Cas on a feeding tube and gave him some medicines while they tried to find out more. When Cas woke up one of them came to tell us what was wrong.
“it seems like you haven’t eaten as much as you should so it hurt you and we found out you are pregnant. I will leave you both alone for some" she said going out. Cas was shocked. Tears started to come down my face.
“h-how?..” Cas asked still in shock.
“I am so so sorry" I said crying. I felt so bad.
“how am I pregnant I am a guy" Cas said still in shock
“I forgot I can make you pregnant. I am so sorry I should have been more careful. I am so sorry" I said crying.
“b-but why are you sorry? You don’t want the baby?” Cas asked thinking why I was so sorry about it all.
“i.. I-I c-cant l-lose y-you" I said crying.
“wow babe this doesn’t mean you are gonna lose me. Hey come here" Cas said taking his arms out. I went to him. He hugged me softly.
“I love you this won’t make me leave you" Cas said softly.
“n-no y-you are h-human t-they n-normally d-d-die" I said shaking of thinking about it.
“oh..don’t think about that. Okay? We will focus on the good. I could survive okay that what we are gonna focus on" Cas said softly. Cas got better and I tried to think about the good but it was hard knowing I would probably lose him and it was all my fault. Cas got big fast. We didn’t tell his family. Cas needed my help so we lied and said we were on a vacation. We found out it was a baby girl. Cas was so happy. He started to get contractions. I tried my best to comfort him. Cas told me he loved me and cuddled a lot with me. He could see I was worried about him. Cas went to the bathroom.
“Dean Dean my water broke" Cas said panicking. I jumped up and went to him. Cas looked scared it broke my heart. I took him to our room. Cas screamed in pain when he started to push. I was at his legs talking him through it. Cas pushed and tried his best. When she came out Cas was close to passing out. I took her and went to Cas.
“babe n-no d-dont n-n-no" I said starting to cry. Cas eyes slowly went shut. I cried scared he would die. I cried for long. Sam came and helped me take care of Melissa. I stayed holding Cas hand. Sam put Melissa on my chest. Sam said she needed skin to skin. I held her I started to cry. Sam sighed sad it hurt him to see me like this.
I held my hand on Cas wrist so I could feel his pulse. Sam put a blanket over me and some of Melissa. I stayed awake. Melissa made me feel a little better. I stayed awake to Cas woke up. It was 6 days. I didn’t sleep.
Cas eyes slowly opened. He looked around and ended up with me. Melissa was on my chest her head on my bear chest. Cas smiled softly of how cute she was. He looked up at me.
“oh babe" Cas said sad and worried seeing I looked like a mess. I looked at him. I smiled softly.
“babe come I wanna hug you" Cas said softly. I took Melissa in her crib. I laid down on Cas. He hugged me softly.
“I am so sorry I scared you” Cas said worried.
“It’s okay I am happy you are okay" I said softly. Cas took his hand in my hair softly.
“I love you so much" Cas said softly.
“I love you so much too" I said softly back. We stayed hugging for a while. When Cas was ready I let him hold Melissa. I was so glad he ended up being okay. I don’t think I could live I life without him. I love him so bad.