“Nobody’s perfect"
a quote I have to remind myself.
I try to get it through my head,
But it just won’t stick.
I’m tired of being compared to everyone,
Especially my sister,
But it seems it won’t be stopping anytime soon.
How can I not be compared to her?
She’s smart,
Beautiful,
Has the right personality,
And most of all,
She has confidence…
That’s why I will never believe in that line.
Because she’s perfect.
I try my best to be like her,
That’s what my mother wants.
But as usual,
I can’t do anything right.
I always find a way to mess things up,
Which is one thing I hate about myself.
My dad tells me I’m perfect the way I am,
But my mother tells me different.
She tends to criticize everything about me.
My weight
My hair
My grades.
The list keeps going from there.
I want to be perfect
Just like my big sister.
But I know that will never be.
People criticizing and comparing me
Makes me feel more unattractive day after day.
It makes me think I need to change my appearance.
Plastic surgery seems to be my only answer.
But what would my family think?
My insecurity always gets the best of me.
I always need to know everyone’s opinion.
What really get to me are couples.
I always feel I’m missing something when they walk down the halls.
The feeling of loneliness takes over my whole body.
Then I go home and cry myself to sleep.
It seems I tend to do that often.
But I need to remember what Lady Gaga taught me.
Always love the way you are,
And don’t hide your true self.
That’s what I need to keep telling myself…
Nobody’s perfect.
