All this "Christmas Thing"

The last day of school

I didn't know if I had to turn round to see him like people do in love movies so I got into the car. Mailin was sitting next to me. I wanted to cry but the journalists were there so I couldn't. I put my mask on, the one I try to wear when I'm in public. Erik tought me this ! I stared at the road in front of me without showing any feeling. There was no sound. Nobody was talking. The car started and didn't stop until we reached the palace. When the journalists disappeared I started to cry thinking about Simon and his beautiful voice that I had just heard. Mailin saw me and gave me a cute smile saying "it's gonna be fine I promise. I'm here for you " She was so sweet... Yes she was there but not my mom aka the person I had to stop seeing Simon because of. I wanted to be mad or sad or proud or anything but I just couldn't feel anything.

We finally reached the palace. I went into my bedroom and put off my suit. Suddenly, I felt something in my throat I couldn't breath well anymore. My hands started to move and I felt so cold. The last time I had it was after the horror movie right before I kissed Simme. I walked in my room trying to catch my breath. I saw the picture of Erik and thought about all our moments together. When we were younger we played everytime and didn't care at all about the fame. I was breathing well again !