short writings about love 彡☆

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why cant i stop loving you.
it sucks, loving someone who doesn't show you any time of their day.
when you so desperately crave their validation and crumble when they don't tell you what you want to hear.
it's exhausting, right?
the cycle of hating and loving the same person, different emotions everytime he finally texts. happy or sad, hurt or dissapointed.
"miss you too." he says.
"love you too." he says
but does he?
and when it all feels uncertain, he blames himself, says that he isn't ready.
but you didn't ask for him to commit to anything.
you just asked him to care.
to maybe just tell you how he feels.
because if he wants you to go, why
should you keep putting him first.
answering every text within the first 7 minutes,
getting excited when he says he's going to call.
just for him to respond 9 hours later, not one call. not the next day, or the one after that.
"i'm just lazy."
but is playing games with the people who you claim to be annoying, more important?
he tells you that you aren't annoying, but then proceeds to say everything that strengthens that worry.
or not even say at all.
and that's how the cycle goes.
uncertain.
excruciating.
love.
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