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| Loving you was a losing game|

Note: This time, Vansh's point of view, the pain he must have went through after he jumped off the cliff. The song used is 'Arcade'. In line comments please.....

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" I fucking hate you, Ridhima " Vansh whispered to himself with bloodshot eyes, tears threatening to fall from his eyes.

For the first time, he could feel his world collapsing, his heart breaking into pieces. There wasn't any sound, but he could feel his heart paining.

Is this what love is?

Painful?

Destructing?

Isn't love the most beautiful feeling, as described by the fables and tales, then why did love did this to him?

Gripping the watch that was gifted by her tighter in his hands, he stared at it with a lost smile playing on his lips.

" I love you, right? Didn't I? Then why did I got betrayed, Ridhima. " 

A broken heart is all that's left
I'm still fixing all the cracks
Lost a couple of pieces when
I carried it, carried it, carried it home.

" I thought, I got a home, which was you. Who would take me in and love my broken pieces. "

He whispered to himself and caressed the material in his hands which gave him shivers.

" I had felt my heartbeat rising, when you touched my chest. I had felt my breaths going uneven when you came close to me, your mere touch created shivers in my body. I never experienced it with anyone, but you. "

I'm afraid of all I am
My mind feels like a foreign land

" But now, you feel like a foreign touch. Someone whom I don't know. "

Silence ringing inside my head
Please, carry me, carry me, carry me home

" Please get me away from this darkness.

I am tired.

I am tired from living in darkness, you became the ray of light in my life, right?

Why did you took away the light after pulling me out?

After promising the song of immortality with me, why did you suddenly went away?

You went taking my sun away and now, it's all dark here. "

I've spent all of the love I saved
We were always a losing game

" Maybe, this is our end. Maybe, we weren't meant to be.

Maybe, you were right, this relationship wasn't anything.

We were always a losing game. "

Small town boy in a big arcade
I got addicted to a losing game
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game

" Jo iss duniya ko darata tha with aaj khud darr raha hai.

Kisi ki attachment se.

Kisi ke care se.

Kisi ke ishq se.

Shayad ise hi ishq kehte hai, ek aisi takat jo insaan ki rooh tak ko badal kar rakh de.

Tumne iss Vansh raisinghania ko badal diya. "

How many pennies in the slot?
Giving us up didn't take a lot
I saw the end 'fore it begun
Still I carried, I carried, I carried on

" Kisi ne sach hi kaha hai, 'ishq junoon jab hadh se badh jaye, haste haste ashiq sooli chad jaye. '

Tumhare ishq ne mujhe tod diya, Ridhima.

You broke me.

Broke my heart.

Into pieces.

Shayad.... Pehli baar, Vansh raisinghania toot gaya.

Sochta tha, kabhi na kabhi tum uss Kabir ko bhula dogi aur mujhse pyaar karogi.

But, I was wrong.

Very wrong.

Love was never written in my fate. That bastard has nothing but everything.

He has got someone who would love him unconditionally and look at me, despite having such a big family,

I'm alone.

For the first time, I am jealous of him.

He has you.

Your unconditional love.

Your unconditional trust.

All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game
All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game

" Why did I love you?

When I knew, you were a spy.

It was a mission.

Why did I kept hope?

I could feel the hate and doubts slowly vanishing, I thought love was finally budding.

Where did I went wrong?

Feelings?

Acceptance?

Loving you?

Was loving you a mistake?

Was loving you a losing game?"

I don't need your games, game over
Get me off this rollercoaster

" I am tired.

I want peace.

I do not want these games now.

I am afraid now, seeing my sister almost dead in my arms and kabir arresting me,

It scares me.

Scares me, was trusting you wrong?

I did a mistake of trusting you, right?

I did a mistake of loving you?

Is that it?

The end of us. "

All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game

" All that I know is, loving you was a losing game"

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Yes! I have gone mad!

This is what it is, I don't know what the hell it is! So if you understand, kindly explain me too.

Bruh I literally don't feel like writing. I just keep staring at the screen, trying to form words. And response......

Kya hi bolu Yaar.....

Never mind.

Target:
150+ votes
100+ comments

Ye bhi pura ho jaye na to baht hai.

Till my next update take care and stay safe! Byeeeeeee.