"I know this is extremely sudden, and you might not be ready, but... it's not possible for you to keep showing up to work anymore."
All of the blood in Y/N's face ran empty as they tried to proccess what the head librarian had just said to them. What?
"Wait, I'm sorry, I don't under-"
They were cut off quickly by the woman. It was obvious how much their boss wanted to get whatever she was saying over with; As quickly as possible, Like ripping off a bandage.
"You've been working for me for about two years now, and I know you've dedicated yourself as much as you can to this job and- and although a lot of assistance is needed in this company right now, you aren't-"
She was looking distant, as if she was deciding the perfect words to go into a perfect pattern, like she was trying to solve a crossword puzzle utterly in her head. It looked difficult. Y/N's mind was racing back and forth and back and forth and back and forth again. What's she trying to say? I don't understand- Did I do something wrong? What did I do? Can I fix it? Oh no, no, no. This is bad- what do I do?
"You have to leave. Your attendance lately has been irregular at best. I can't let you continue with your help here if you aren't putting any effort into this job. I'm so truly sorry, Y/N, but even so, I have to release you from your current position."
Separation, indifference, fear. These were all things that they had felt in this moment. The feeling that nothing would go their way ever again but, at the same time, feeling displaced in this feeling, like a disassociation from their body. The bad news hadn't sunk it yet. They were in shock.
"Y-yes ma'am I... thank you for giving me a chance," they said with a pained smile plastered underneath the crooks in their cheeks.
They could feel the intimidating yet empathetic woman watching their back when they finally left the office, and the building altogether, for the last ever time. As they stood on the cracked, uneven curb of the sidewalk that had led to the spacious parking lot before them, the overwhelming feeling of panic and distress had finally sunk into their skin, through their muscles, stabbing deep into their gut, pinching at the heart in their chest, and clogging up their throat. Stinging eyes gathering more water as they walked, they continued down the blocks and blocks of houses and stores and buildings that looked like they went miles high. They felt minuscule in their body, like a rat stuck in a mouse trap. Like a blade of dead grass in a large field of flowers. Like a tiny speck of dust in an old mansion that no one lives in but one person, holding a magnifying glass above that spec of dust, watching its every move.
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After a while of walking aimlessly through the city, they finally stopped in a silent area of unimportance, where no one would find them in the most vulnerable state of mind they have been in for a long while. They leaned up against the side wall of a building that was there, facing the street, and let the painful pool of anxiety in their eyes trickle down onto the flat contrete below, occasionally wiping away some of the pain. What am I supposed to do now...?
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Through Those Days (Sundrop/Moondrop x y/n fan-fiction) (fluff)
Fanfic"Because of their homage problems causing them to take too much extra leave off of work, Y/N gets laid off from their job at the city's public library. This, along with their current studies in child psychology, forces them into a job at a daycare p...
