Rain

|| Unfair life ||

You opened the book.

Congrats.

There isn't nothing in here but to describe you. Family issues over lap. You want to be away from home but you don't want to be in the big world yet. Your friends are nothing but a mess. You would rather trust the internet with your issue's than a therapist.

Where did it all go wrong?

You did every thing the universe said to do. But the more you try the more you break. It aches you to see others happy. You just can't understand. Your grades keep slipping every time you stress.

Your mental health? Yikes.

I don't even know how it happened. I'm not in your brain. But you most likely opened the book to see the big idea. But other than that.

How was your day?

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You probably said nothing right?

Words can't describe how  shit life is.

I can help.

Did you feel empty?
Did you get bullied?
Are you overworking yourself?
Or  are you guilty?
Did you hurt yourself?
Did you see yourself in the mirror?
Did you hurt someone else?
Are you okay?

Well if your reading this just remember your not alone. I mean. I can make try to form a life for you. Might not be exact.

You wake up. (Feeling normal) You get ready for school. You see family member. They motion you to go school. No byes or love you's. Normal for you.

You go to school. You see a friend.  Your friend makes you happy. You go to lesson. Lesson is not that bad. You don't feel anything. Not yet at least. Sitting at the back with a feeling of loneliness. 

You pretend to be happy.

You need to talk to people. Make them laugh. At lunch. You look at your lunch wondering if its too much. You hand it over to your friend , lying to them saying your not hungry or that you don't actually like the food. They eat with ease.

You know someone is watching you. A teacher? Maybe a friend who does know? They might know everything about you. They may try to pretend they don't. Your anti-social so you only have around up to 1-3 real friends.

You always apologize first. You will always be lied to. You're always in the middle. You don't know how to comfort people. You see no point living or dying. You can't cry in front of people. You joke about depression when you're an actual psychopath who needs to get a therapist.

You thought about those pills before.

Well that's just life. No one , nothing can make you feel better.

Life is like rain.

 We fall out the world to determine if we fall peacefully or rapidly. When storms happen everything bad happens but its rather peaceful. When you die you rest on the ground. Or you go back to the clouds to try again. Sad isn't it?

You can either chose rain or life. And if I known better you would do anything to get rid of your own life. But to die troubles and aches your head. You have to survive. No choice. The gift to judge people is annoying but very useful.  Just try it out and come back to me. I had to get used to it y'know.

Me and you both know

                        Life is unfair...