The Last Note [ON HOLD]

5. LIKE THE SUN OF MY SUMMER.

Ajey's P.O.V:

I took in a final breath before I opened the meeting software.

I logged into the meeting and a moment or two into it, I received a request.

Someone named Trishika Bhardwaj wants to join in the meeting.

Okay, so what if the surnames match, huh? It might be some other Trishika Bhardwaj. I am sure.

I don't know why the fuck was I so anxious.
I knew she wasn't that Trishika. I didn't even want her to be that.

Or maybe I did.

Nevertheless, I allowed her into the meeting and it was exactly at this second when I thought I would cry. Infact, even worse, breakdown.

It was her. But, what I thought would happen, didn't.

I was so shocked at my own reaction, that I didn't even get the chance to say "hi" to her.

I inhaled. I exhaled. I inhaled, and exhaled again.

Biting my lower lip, I tried not to sound vulnerable and surprised.

Real talk - this was so absurd to me! Even though I said I don't want Trishika to be Trishika, somewhere deep down you know, I hoped for her to return. And now that what I have had hoped for had become a reality, that hope is taking the best out of me.

No emotions, no tears, no feelings. All I was facing right now was a full-fledged, decade long flashback.

Each and every moment which was special. Each and every moment she made special. Afterall, she, Trishika Bhardwaj was the most special.

. . .

Trishika's P.O.V:

What I feared the most, was right in front of me.

Ajey Nagar.

I feared his presence, and it was right in front of me on my laptop's screen.

Even though, this whole situation was extremely bizzare in itself, still, do you know what's the weirdest part of all?

The weirdest part is that sometimes, fear is good.

They say that one has to be fearless, which ofcourse, I feel is true. But, what I also feel is true is that human emotions cannot be controlled by a mere quote. That requires strength, emotional toughness, a strong will power, a strong desire to overcome your fear and most importantly, a lot of practise.

The pain and the discipline required to overcome your biggest fears is much lesser than the pain you feel when you can't face your fear.

Darr ki ankhon mein aankhein daalkar dekh, woh khud-ba-khud chala jayega.

But, the reality is that, harr kisike paas darr ki aankhon mein aankhein daalkar dekhne ki himmat hi nhi hai. Toh, darr kaise chala jayega?

And that's exactly why it requires so much discipline. So much strength. So much time.

And at this moment, I just wasn't able to become that version of myself.

I guess, my case is an exception. He is my fear. And if I follow the saying by looking him in the eye, then probably, that would result in him moving away.