The Last Note [ON HOLD]

15. THE SWEETNESS OF NOTHING.

Ajey's P.O.V:

So apparently, Ritvik was Gayatri aunty's daughter's "best friend". Uh, not that I mind it, though. Why would I? I don't even know her daughter.

But I just don't get that vibe from him. I don't know, but what I feel is that in most cases, either one of the two best friends have feelings for the other person. How do I know? Because I have been through it.

During my childhood, when Trishika and I were friends, I gradually developed the purest feelings for her which I didn't even knew I had. Infact, she was my first ever crush.

Oh, the feeling of ecstasy that hits you when that one person is around; especially as a kid, when you don't even know what a crush is.

If that doesn't scream pure and innocent love with nothing but sweetness, I don't know what does.

I remember, it was one of those feelings which I used to enjoy the most. And the most surreal thing? I never felt that way ever again, after we lost touch. But today, for some weird reason, I do feel it. It's fucking nostalgic, man!!

What if this is where she lives?
I thought to myself.

Uh, I don't think so.
I replied to my own self.

Why, man? Her hometown is Lucknow. And even Gayatri aunty has the same surname as hers. Maybe she's her mother! Why couldn't that be a possibility?
The voice spoke again; giving me some hope.

So what? It's note her home afterall, okay? This is pure coincidence. And by the way, she shifted to Delhi, okay?
I replied back.

Shut up, you doofus! Fucking coward. I know you're trying to avoid thinking about this possibility because you won't be able to face it in real life, if it really were to take place.
My inner voice scolded me.

Eh, me and my overthinker brain!!Moreover, these fake scenarios. All these would be the end of me one day, I tell you.

Okay, but what if this possibility turns into a reality? Damn no-
What are you even thinking, Ajey? Are you mad? You'll die of anxiety, so just shut up. She's in Delhi.

Umm, but no, seriously, what if this is her home?
I thought to myself.

You see, even when nothing happens, I overthink, stress out and conclude everything all by myself only.

And with that said, anxiety started creeping onto my being.

My legs started shaking terribly while I tried to catch my breath harder with each passing moment. I avoided looking at the people present in the hall as I quickly turned my gaze away from them, in the direction of the gardens outside.

My legs shook uncontrollably, and that, I swear was the worst and the most embarassing part of it.

-"Ajey..."
Yash spoke slowly; placing his hand on my thigh, stopping my leg as I looked at him nervously.

-"Ajey, are you okay? Calm down...why are your legs shaking, is something wrong? Tell me..."
He whisper-yelled.

I didn't speak anything and quickly ran my gaze through everyone; with my eyes all welled up now.

I looked away again and tried to inhale deeply, while my legs still shook uncontrollably.

-"Ajey!! Look at me..."
Yash spoke as he turned my face towards himself with his hand grabbing my chin.

-"Damn, you're all red and your forehead-
My god, it's burning!!"
He whisper-yelled again.

-"Here, have some water,"
Yash said as he offered me some water kept on the table.