The Soultaker

"Beginning Of The Clouds"

Childhood full of chaos and demons. Family full of addict's and liar's. Abandoned by many, doors constantly opening and closing. Broken promises by plenty, to many letters not cared to be open.
Little girl forced into a warrior, as she holds every moment of disappointment caused by her own blood.
Distracted by her family's life decisions making it hard to focus on her own chance in life.
Days were nights, nights were days. Fear of the system consistently running through her head. Boiling water on stove tops before bed.
Drug addicts that's all she had.
When nights were days, it was hard to go to bed. Bedtime stories? Or even prayers before bed? None of the above, usually things were left unsaid.
When days were nights, she would say those were the best. She didn't feel so alone, left in her head.
Involving me in the next chase, they didn't think I was safe. Cherished every sober moment, it brought a smile on my face.
For so many years,
She had a handful of questions run through her mind. Never being able to understand why. How did they end up this way? Why can't they stop for me.What's wrong with me?
Diagnosed at an early age With ADHD,
I gave them the pills that they gave to me.They told my doctor they couldn't handle me. I was always angry and had to much energy. I once put myself in a facility. Asking myself again "What the hell is wrong with me?."
When her happiness did finally come it was hard to show, always worrying when It would go. Laughs were sometimes held back, smiles were hard to keep.
Why did everything she ever felt have to hit so deep?
Being Broken at such a young age, was hard it's self! So I hope your ready? My story's not over, time to tell you about meeting the devil myself.