Ever feel so worthless after you're parents take out there pain on you. You see it makes it worse especially if you help them even though they treat you like nothing. My father always says my issues with my depression are fake. But are they fake?
I mean people where there for you when my sister passed, but when I am not feeling ok with myself you throw nasty words at me. You see I'm very sensitive and when words get to me I just don't want to love in a place where I am not welcomed.
I loved myself as a child but I was blind to everything I see it know. He tells me I'm the problem but yet he won't notice the cries of his own child. Laughing at me as if I'm comedy.
I work hard with school and anything I want to do but when my dad calls me lazy and doesn't want to do anything. Well dad ever heard of TAKING A Mental HEALTH BREAK!?
I used to love being around my family but instead they just laugh when they see me crying or the scars on my arms. I loved being myself but I'm useless. Yet when you're not feeling the greatest I do everything just to feel love. I mean putting you're hands on me wasn't good either.
I never knew what love was or physical touch besides my father. So maybe I should cry myself to sleep and never wake up again.
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Life isn't Easy Anymore
PoetryThis is poetry or spoken word about how I feel deep down. I want people to relate to it and understand it is ok to be hurting. Also, a very hard trigger warning these talk about SH (self-harm) and many other topics. so please read with caution
